It's A Mental Game

You might have noticed that the last few weeks, I have reported very good progress as much of the problems experienced in the months of March and April have subsided. My experience with cancer is that when things are good, naturally you feel good but when things are not good, you not only feel lousy, you feel you may have lost further grounds to the tumors. Under such circumstances, when things are good obviously I feel very positive about everything. My wife have reminded me not to keep my hopes too high and put too much pressure on myself. In a way, it's also a mental problem and the ability to handle the mind will have tremendous impact on how one handles the problems encountered during the therapy. Yes, I have sometimes wondered during severe pain if I should just let go. Why must I go through so much pain just to live another day? These thoughts will soon come to pass for after a tunderstorm, there will be calm and then sunshine.

I have been learning qigong for almost 4 months now. I must say my progress is about average because qigong is unlike other exercises. In qigong we have to deal with a ball of invisible energy that you collect from the environment and then apply to cleanse the body. The mind must not only able to visualise and carry the ball of energy with the hands, it requires absolute concentration. I know of friends who have learned for 2 years without any results. Sometimes I do feel some form of energy around my hands but at other times, nothing. You may go to class everyday and still end up with nothing. Sigh...