Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Ups And Downs

Like a yoyo, this morning I was awaken by the back pain on my shoulder blade area again, just when I thought things were getting back to normal. To ease the pain, I quickly slept face down. I was wondering what could have been the cause? Yesterday, I spent sometime resting in bed and was watching a documentary for about an hour on my notebook. I have this muscle stiffness problem. What this means is that if my body stay at a certain position for too long, the muscles becomes stiff and as a result, there will be pain when I move position. This also happens during my pre-cancer days. One way to overcome this problem is to do stretching and some exercises (such as jogging and swimming). However, since I got cancer, I am just into simple stretching exercises.

My current problem is the usual mouth ulcers, I think there are 3 of them. A little disturbing especially during eating time but I can live with it. The stomach gases problem seems to have left. So I am having a relative good time, looks like all systems are go.

Last few days I have also been doing some weeding and tree pruning around the house. I have been careful so as not to strain myself too much, sometimes working for most up to an hour at a time only. Even then, my muscles will pain from carrying the showel or other tools, especially underneath my armpit at the end of the day. I always get this problem when I start to work after a long rests.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

It's Not Over Until You Say It's Over

So far, the pain at the should blade area did not recurr and my sleep was quite good. My schedule has been disrupted a bit since I started doing clean water enema prior to the coffee enema. The time taken to do coffee enema has now increased by about 20 minutes. Has there been an improvement? At this moment, I don't know. It is now much easier to do the coffee enema. The discharge for the coffee enema is still smelly and as before, psychologically I always feel much better after an enema.

For those of you who have constipation problem may consider doing a clean water (always use distilled water) enema if you are not comfortable doing coffee enema. Constipation can become a major health problem as the colon gets clogged up and traps the toxic waste that should be eliminated. Contributors to constipation are habitual in nature. The key contributor is from a regular diet of refined and processed foods. The other contributors are a lack of fiber, some medications, especially pain killers, excess iron, antidepressants, food allergies, tap water, lack of magnesium and potassium, poor muscle tone, lack of water, hypothyroidism and obesity.

I am a little busy these few days because I need to do some research for some of the materials that I want to post later. I am also assisting a lady in her late 50s who is now on chemotherapy for her lung cancer. I am also gathering information to help her deal with the side effects of chemo and her constipation problem. I think I may have found something for her and will post them later. There is no money involved. Why am I doing this? Because she desperately needs help and I was told she is on the verge of giving up. Life is precious, so I do what I can as others have done for me.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Shifting Clouds, Sunshine Ahead?

Yesterday night before I went to bed, I asked my wife to give me a light massage around the shoulder blade area. I slept much better last night nor was I awaken by any shoulder or back pain. As I have lost lots of muscles during the early stages of the therapy, I noticed I can easily hurt myself with simple knocks and its painful. I just have to be more careful during this period.

Next weekend, I will be travelling to Singapore to see my Homeopathy doctor for follow-up medication. I will also try to visit KC for the first time, someone I wanted to meet way back in March 2010 but could not then. KC has colon cancer and exhausted conventional treatments and now doing Gerson. He is under supervision of a therapist and I would like to meet him to learn more from him, especially on the healing reactions and body pains. He was also the one that introduced me where to get Gerson supplements in Singapore (could not get them in Malaysia).

I am now researching on the nutritional differences between eating potatoes and brown rice. As Asians, our diet is predominantly rice based. Under Gerson, we are recommended to take brown rice only once a week, but what if we use rice to replace potatoes on a daily basis? What is the impact on the tumors? For me, I have and still do take brown rice but for short periods of time, when I have problems eating potatoes.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

In The Beginning

No, this is not a book on the scriptures. These are my experiences that I hope to share with you. It relates to how I follow and do the Gerson Therapy. These are NOT intented to replace the book (which you must read). I am not a doctor or a qualified therapist. The source of these information are from books that I have read. These are just to help you to get started.

These series of short notes that will covers a few areas, namely:

1. The Mind - dealing with your wondering mind, keeping focus and staying positive.
2. The Theory - my way of explaining the theory to you. You must know what you are doing.
3. The Diet - how to follow and do this difficult diet - my way; adapt it and it becomes your way.
4. Healing Reactions - what are some of them and how you can deal with it.

1. The Mind
Before we even start to talk about the therapy itself, the first area that I would like to talk about is your mind. Get this right and you are already 50% into the therapy.

Why me?
No special reason. About 40,000 new cancer cases are detected in Malaysia every year. Nobody targeted you specifically because people who are of different beliefs than you also get cancer. If you include the whole world, millions get cancer every year. Seems cancer is color and religious blind though there are now statistics to show if you are on certain diet, you run higher risk of getting cancer.

So You Now Have Cancer
Your doctor just confirmed you have cancer. Yes, go and cry your heart out, release the tension. Why you? See paragraph above for answer. So don't engage in self pity. Why are the best songs always sad songs? Because the heart thrives on sadness, making how pitiful and unfair this world and life have been to you, and with that you even cry more. Wake up, you are victim of your own doing. Think of some of the people or photographs of skeleton like children that you read and see in the newspapers that are malnutrition; who is better off? You or them? But I am not them? Then even more you should not cry because they don't have cancer and will live most probably like this for the rest of their lives (may next 50 years). I am just reminding you a fact of life that there are thousands more people worst off than you, cancer or not. Recover from your cancer and let us help these people.

OK, finish with your crying? You must stop because there are so many things to do with so little time left. Maybe you are like me, doctors say no cure. Better still, you have no fall back plan, so what you select and do is the only way for you to live. Thousands who are told by their doctors that they are going to die, survived. How did they do it? Yes, copycat reproduction, following what other people have successfully done.

Miracle Cure
Don't be infatuated by miracle cures. I have even heard money back guarantee therapy. Only problem is that if you die, you can sue him/her in Heaven/Hell. Many are scams only out for your money. Testimonials are doctored and crowds at clinic nothing more than part-time actors/actresses or cohorts. Of couse there may be some genuine ones. How do you know? Don't ask me, I don't know. Calm your heart. You cannot stopped people from enticing you this but can chose not to follow. That's why you must be informed and you get this through reading. This therapy that you are going to do has been in existence for over 80 years. Documented with clinics and therapist all over the world (except Malaysia?). A famous third party documentary film maker (DYING TO HAVE KNOWN, filmmaker: Steve Kroschel) has even verified it for you already. Thousand have benefitted and you are the next. So be focus on what you want to do and you get most from it.

Staying Positive
You now have a way to treat your cancer. Worst case is that you will die. Nothing to be afraid, the doctors have already said it and now you confront it. Now you can do something to turn it around and whatever the outcome then, it will not be worst off than death itself.

In the next instalment, I will touch on the theory of the therapy so that you can understand how this therapy can help you. Please read the Gerson book.

I apologise to anyone whom I may have offended when I use the children for comparison. I have no intention of profiting from other people's woes. What I quoted is a fact of life.

Cloudy And A Chance Of More Pain

The last two days, I have been awaken by pain around both my shoulder blade area around 5am. I am not sure if this was due to pressure of my body because when I roll to the side, the pain would ease. However, that would put pressure on the shoulder. When I wake up, the pain would immediately cease. I am also not sure if this was connected to me using the notebook on my bed, something I have not done for a long time. So what I am going to do is to stop using my notebook on the bed and monitor the situation to see if would improve.

This morning, I would change my coffee enema routine a bit. I would do a clean water enema first before I start the enema proper. This is to hydrate the colon and remove the feces first and I hope this way, I would benefit more from the coffee enema.

Having worked with other cancer patients and their other half, I realised not many are as enthusiastic as me when it comes to reading Dr Gerson's book. Some even find reading the summarised version a chore. While most people have no problem following the juicing requirement, they have problems following of the coffee enema and the diet. Coffee enema just needs some training but the diet is the killer. I am thinking of writing a series of practical short notes about my experience and how I manage to follow the diet and hope those who have problems can follow or at least adapt it to their needs accordingly instead of abandoning it completely. Do remember I am doing Gerson Therapy alone without any help. If you can get help, you will be better off following the Gerson recipes.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

The Coffee Enema

The Coffee Enema detox method are recommended both by Dr. Max Gerson and Dr. William Donald Kelly (who cured himself of pancreatic cancer in 1967). I would like to share some additional information on how coffee enema works.

Dr. Kelley recommends that you take a plain water enema (distilled water) before your coffee enema. This allows water to hydrate your colon (when a person is dehydrated and the coffee solution is used without a water enema being taken first the coffee is absorbed into the fecal matter and is wasted for the purpose of detoxification). For detoxification to occur the caffeine in the coffee solution must get to the hepatic portal vein and deliver the caffeine to the liver, which causes the bile duct to dilate and dump the stored bile in the gall bladder (the caffeine in a coffee enema gently stimulates this much needed dumping).

The liver receives two types of blood from the hepatic portal vein: (a) arterial blood from the hepatic artery, which brings fresh, oxygenated blood from the aorta and (b) portal (venous) blood which has previously passed through the intestine and spleen, which carries not only nutrients and, in the case of a person who has just taken a coffee enema, caffeine, but also various contaminants (drugs, toxins from food, bacteria, byproducts of blood-cell recycling). These two types of blood mix together in the hepatic sinusoids and, after the liver performs a diversity of functions, including the detoxification of drugs and poisons and the formation and secretion of bile — which often contains drugs and poisons — to the bile duct and gall bladder, which eventually dumps into the intestine) the blood then passes out of the liver.

To take the enema, lie on my right side on the floor or on a low bench and insert the enema tube letting the whole-quart (1 liter) of either water or the coffee solution go in and I hold it for about 5 to 10 minutes. Both Gerson and Kelley recommend holding the coffee enema 15-20 minutes, especially if you are in a “healing crises,” which is what Gerson calls the flu-like symptoms that Dr. Kelley experienced. A healing crises is the goal of every patient at the Gerson clinic and of Dr. Kelley because, even though you feel terrible, you know the treatment is working when you go into a healing crisis. Your job is to keep taking coffee enemas until the crisis is past and at that point you know you have improved your health (by dissolving toxins with the pancreatic enzymes and getting them out of your body with the coffee enemas).

Health Status @ 26 June 2010

New information are presented in italics.

Problem
Tumor mass of size of about 14cm on the right kidney and 21 and 23 over nodes all over my left and right lungs respectively with one up to 3cm in size on both lungs. Possibly also spread to the liver.

First detected on 11 September 2009 through CT Scan. Subsequent CT scan on 1 March 2010 showed some improvements on the larger nodes in the lungs but did not provide enough details on the smaller nodes. The primary tumor is now about 12.4cm, about the same size in October 2009. The two bigger nodes on the left and right lungs has reduced by about 1.5cm. However, a new node was detected about the size of 3.5cm x 3.7cm at the T6 area.

Prognosis
Consulted four urologists (one in Singapore and three in Malaysia) and two oncologists (one in Malaysia and one in Singapore). Both oncologists suggested removal of right kidney. Singapore urologist also suggested removal of kidney. The three urologists do not recommend surgery or chemotherapy. The last urologist consulted said most of his patients died within six months of surgery while two on the expensive (RM20K per month) drug Sutent is not responding. All agree that is no cure for the moment.

My urologist said my cancer is at stage 4 and did not recommend me to take any treatment. It is also my own choice not to take conventional treatment after considering all the facts of the case.

Schedule for next scan is on 1 September 2010.

MAIN THERAPIES
a. Modified Gerson Therapy
a1. Coffee Enema
Initially, four times a day for four weeks, every four hours apart. Currently three times a day in the morning, afternoon and evening for 15 minutes.

Commence castor oil enema from 23 January 2010.

a2. Nutrition Diet
All fruits and vegetables mentioned are organic.
i. Juicing - 11 fruit and vegetables juices a day beginning around 7am and ending 7pm. 5 apple+carrot, 2 carrot and 4 green vegetable juices every hourly. Liver supplements are taken together with carrot juices.
2. Diet - No oil, no sugar and no salt on all cooking. For breakfast and supper, mainly oats with some raisins, sometimes a little Manuka honey is added. For lunch and dinner, vegetables such as Siew Pak Choy, Lettuce, lady's fingers, cauliflower, broccoli and spinach are mainly steamed or boiled. K-salt is added for flavoring. A teaspoon of flaxseed oil is added when serving (but not during cooking). Mainly boiled potatoes and sometimes Somali organic brown rice is consumed. Hippocrates soup are also prepared every other day for daily consumption.
3. Supplements - K-salt, B12, niacin, lugol solution, pancreatin, pepsin and Q10.
4. Others - Rye bread, papaya, guavas, oranges and bananas are consumed at regular intervals.

b. Homeopathy Medicine
Consulting Doctor: DR AU Ramakrishnan MBBS, PhD, Chennai, India (http://www.drramakrishnan.com/)
Local Consultant: Vishuddi Lee
Treatment Started: 6 November 2009.
Consulting: Once every two months in Singapore. Next appointment 12 July 2010.
Reaction: No further reactions observed other than mouth ulcers every now and then.

COMPLEMENTARY THERAPIES
c. Oxygen Therapy
Started using a personal oxygen generator with effect from 8 March 2010 about 1 hour in the evening, 20 minutes per session. Richer oxygen does help in controlling the growth of the tumors. It also reduces fatigue.

d. Zhineng Qigong
Started practicing qigong on 11 March 2010. Attend classes five times a week from 6.30am to 8am.

Health Status
Weight is still around 68±1kgs. Although body pain is minimal, yesterday night I was awaken by some back pain on my right shoulder blade. I noticed that the pain (either on left or right side) comes about when I sleep on my sides, which is my preferred sleeping position. No problems if I sleep facing up. Developed a new batch of mouth ulcers but so far it is under control.

No much changes to my diet of brown rice porridge and stewed vegetables. I have been eating a lot more lately.


Verdict
Boring but a good week.

Friday, June 25, 2010

No Easy Way To Success

Another former World Champion made a humiliating exit of the 2010 World Cup Soccer today. In Unit Trust investments, they say past performance is not guarantee of future performance. Likewise, in cancer therapies, past performance is not guarantee of future success. While the past approach and formulas used are the primary tools, the success and failure actually depends mainly on the players. That's why it is important that the players themselves are committed to the approach and formulas and play to instruction (as they say in soccer) to ensure success. For cancer therapy like those following Gerson Therapy (GT), I believe the commitment and following the instruction are key to how one respond to the therapy.

It's really tempting to deviate because the GT diet is one of the most difficult part to follow. I remember when I first started GT three weeks after my confirmation of cancer, I did another scan and size of the kidney tumor shrank by about 1.5cm after only three weeks in the therapy. Of course, this does not mean it will shrink 1.5cm every three weeks. It tells me that if you are willing to commit and follow, the results will be forth coming. So for the past 9 months, I followed the instructions and so far, I am quite pleased with the results. Yes it was not easy, there was so much in fighting (with the mind) but at least now I think I can say I can see the light, though a little faint, at the end of the tunnel. There will be distractions along the way, in fact many of them, but be focus and committed. That's what I am doing now and in the future.

At the moment, I am enjoying sunshine after coming out of a storm. I do not know if there will be another storm or not before I reach my destination but I think I am strong enough to weather another storm if it does comes. This journey take two years and I am only less than half way there. They say the first step are the most difficult but I have already done that.

Today is Michael Jackson's 1st anniversary. Wherever you are, may you be well and happy always!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Anxiously Awaiting

This week, especially the last few days I have been eating a lot. This morning I weigh myself and found that I have actually gain more than 1kg to 69.2kgs. I am not complaining but then I prefer to keep my weight between 68kgs and 70kgs. As it is now, I have already developed a small spare tyre around my waist.

From now to 1 September when I do my next CT scan is like when you sat for the final examination awaiting for results. You think you have done well and could not wait for the results to be out to confirm if your gut feelings are right. That's how I feel now, a little restless. Anyway I just go about my daily routine and continue developments in my body. Lately I have been eating a lots more fruits and when the fruits are very sweet (eg. melons and mangos), then I just moderate my intake because too much sugar, even in its natural form is not good.

Energy levels have improved and I don't feel so tired anymore in the afternoon, especially after waking up from my afternoon nap. Mouth ulcers are still a problem, otherwise everything looks good.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Are Free Things No Good?

A slight change in the diet did the trick. I replaced the potatoes with brown rice porridge and my stoach had a much easier time. Sometimes I wonder if I am getting this pregnant women craving phenomena. I would prefer certain foods over other foods that I have no problems taking in the past, now suddenly becomes unappetising. Arising from this change and also because of my past experience eating potatoes with stewed vegetables which caused me to have stomach gases, everytime I eat these foods, somehow I feel my stomach will complain. Of course, it could be due to the mind and nothing more but the stomach gases did give me a though time. This is wishful thinking that comes true. I hope this behavior is only temporary.

Now that much of the pain on my body has subsided, the "pain" on my buttocks has become more apparent. I lost a lot of muscles in my buttocks during the Sep-Oct 2009 period. This makes sitting uncomfortable. Although the situation has improved such that I can now sit on hard surfaces (like cement or wood) without much problems for short period of time, siting even on softer surfaces for longer peiod of time is still uncomfortable and a little painful. I wonder how much longer will it takes for the muscles to grow back?

I do receive some very good news about some new cure every now and than and just this month alone, I received two that looks promising. However, not much is documented and based on testimony alone is not good enough for me. Reading the theory behind the Gerson Therapy (GT) has taught me a lot. Sometimes I wonder, the GT which has 80 years of successes wherein thousand have been cured, why is it that this therapy is not well known in Malaysia? Why is nobody interested in promoting it? I believe the answers lies in there is nothing to made by promoting this therapy. Maybe it is because to be a Gerson Therapist, you must have a basic degree in Medicine. However, with just RM120 (US$36), you can buy the book and self administer. Everytime people contact me to understand this therapy, I actually lose money, about RM20 for my petrol, also RM2 on CD/DVD plus my time. My worst disappointment is that these people do not read, they think I am their doctor and expect me to tell them everything. This is the problem when you do it for free. Good things that cure cancer much be expensive, only then people will believe. That's why people are willing to be cheated of RM40k for some fake cure. Sigh...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Business As Usual

There is not much happening now days and as usual, the daily routine of jucing, diet and coffee enema detox. Except for the morning coffee enema, I think the other two enemas in the afternoon and evening is becoming normal i.e. not that smelly anymore. The only exception is on days when I do the cator oil enema wherein the discharge would be much more smelly.

Off and on I do get stomach indigestion, even after the first morning juice. Perhaps it's the stomach gases contributing to it. Anyway I think I need to work on my stomach and help it improve and some of my eating problems will also disappear. I am modifying my lunch/dinner diet a little to include some brown rice because just on pure vegetables (plus the potatoes) is not enough as I still get this indigestion feeling especially after eating (despite eating slowly).

Monday, June 21, 2010

Clinacanthus (Snake) Plant


Scientific name: Clinacanthus nutans, English name: Snake plant, Chinese name: 鰐嘴花, E zui hua, 扭序花, Niu xu hua, 竹節黃, Zhu jie huang, 小接骨, Xiao jie gu, 柔刺草, Rou ci cao, 青箭, Qing jian, 鵝嘴花, E zui hua, 憂遁草, You dun cao, 沙巴蛇草, Sha ba she cao and Malay/Local name: Kitajan, Gendis.

I used to chew snake plant leaves during my younger days to relieve heatiness and fevers but stopped taking them in the mid 1980s. I am one of those who get heatiness easily, so I take this drink Wong Lou Kat 王佬吉(a very bitter black herbal drink) with snake leave power added making it even more bitter. I tried to find a bit more scientific information about this plant especially on clinical trials in cancer and managed to find a clinical trial conducted in Thailand. Based on the Journal abstract, patients treated with the plant shows higher staisfaction as compared to conventional treatment. There are some other sites that shows that the snake plant extract does help to inhibit cancer. However, their efficacy is not immediate.

In any case, I am very confident of the Gerson Therapy (GT) despite not being able to follow it fully due to the unavailability of some supplements. Anyway, my GT is a modified version which I adhere to as close as possible and so far it is giving me good results. I do mix and complement with other therapies when possible. For example, I do put in a little papaya leave when I prepare my carrot+apple juice and in my early days of therapy, wheat grass as well. Depending on my healing reaction, I do modify my diet accordingly but all within what I learned in the GT.

The mouth ulcers is agitating me and disrupting my mood as it make me difficult to talk and eat. My Homeopathy doctor said if possible, to let it heal naturally. So it is something I will have to put up with. My complain is the usual lack of sleep but I feel great to be alive!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

There Is Always Hope

In the world of World Cup soccer, the recent results have been stunning with the possibility of a few past champions not making the cut. Past results is no guarantee of your future success because each team in the past worked very hard to achieve the results. Although I have been reporting good results, I have also continued to motivate myself to prevent complacency. My past few month's experience tells me that you cannot relax just yet just because of some good results. I find reading other people's experience most motivating, seeing how people cope with a no hope situation to a full recovery, including a case of a 12 year old girl who had to undergo 12 surgeries and chemotherapy. Not only did the cancer spread and not go away, the girl was so weak that the doctors have given up hope on her. Of course, because of the Gerson Therapy, she is now alive and well.

One of the ulcers is getting bigger than the norm and is giving me some problems especially at night because the little pain it cause would disturb my sleep. I have also been quite hungry especially in the evenings.

As my energy levels and condition improves, I have began to be more active in my daily routine including clearing of rubbish and weeds around the house. One of my project was to cut down and clear the plant (as seen in picture) in front of my house. The tree trunk is quite big, over 1 feet at least. I have already done two trimmings in the past. I have been wanting do it for the past few months but could not find ther energy to do it. With a saw, I took about half and hour to cut it down and another 15 minutes to clear it.

I have also started to germinate tomatoes plant. I heard it is quite difficult to grow tomatoes but I will try. It will help me to cut down on my food bill as well.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Health Status @ 19 June 2010

New information are presented in italics.

Problem
Tumor mass of size of about 14cm on the right kidney and 21 and 23 over nodes all over my left and right lungs respectively with one up to 3cm in size on both lungs. Possibly also spread to the liver.

First detected on 11 September 2009 through CT Scan. Subsequent CT scan on 1 March 2010 showed some improvements on the larger nodes in the lungs but did not provide enough details on the smaller nodes. The primary tumor is now about 12.4cm, about the same size in October 2009. The two bigger nodes on the left and right lungs has reduced by about 1.5cm. However, a new node was detected about the size of 3.5cm x 3.7cm at the T6 area.

Prognosis
Consulted four urologists (one in Singapore and three in Malaysia) and two oncologists (one in Malaysia and one in Singapore). Both oncologists suggested removal of right kidney. Singapore urologist also suggested removal of kidney. The three urologists do not recommend surgery or chemotherapy. The last urologist consulted said most of his patients died within six months of surgery while two on the expensive (RM20K per month) drug Sutent is not responding. All agree that is no cure for the moment.

My urologist said my cancer is at stage 4 and did not recommend me to take any treatment. It is also my own choice not to take conventional treatment after considering all the facts of the case.

Schedule for next scan is on 1 September 2010.

MAIN THERAPIES
a. Modified Gerson Therapy
a1. Coffee Enema
Initially, four times a day for four weeks, every four hours apart. Currently three times a day in the morning, afternoon and evening for 15 minutes.

Commence castor oil enema from 23 January 2010.

a2. Nutrition Diet
All fruits and vegetables mentioned are organic.
i. Juicing - 11 fruit and vegetables juices a day beginning around 7am and ending 7pm. 5 apple+carrot, 2 carrot and 4 green vegetable juices every hourly. Liver supplements are taken together with carrot juices.
2. Diet - No oil, no sugar and no salt on all cooking. For breakfast and supper, mainly oats with some raisins, sometimes a little Manuka honey is added. For lunch and dinner, vegetables such as Siew Pak Choy, Lettuce, lady's fingers, cauliflower, broccoli and spinach are mainly steamed or boiled. K-salt is added for flavoring. A teaspoon of flaxseed oil is added when serving (but not during cooking). Mainly boiled potatoes and sometimes Somali organic brown rice is consumed. Hippocrates soup are also prepared every other day for daily consumption.
3. Supplements - K-salt, B12, niacin, lugol solution, pancreatin, pepsin and Q10.
4. Others - Rye bread, papaya, guavas, oranges and bananas are consumed at regular intervals.

b. Homeopathy Medicine
Consulting Doctor: DR AU Ramakrishnan MBBS, PhD, Chennai, India (http://www.drramakrishnan.com/)
Local Consultant: Vishuddi Lee
Treatment Started: 6 November 2009.
Consulting: Once every two months in Singapore. Next appointment 12 July 2010.
Reaction: No further reactions observed other than mouth ulcers every now and then.

COMPLEMENTARY THERAPIES
c. Oxygen Therapy
Started using a personal oxygen generator with effect from 8 March 2010 about 1 hour in the evening, 20 minutes per session. Richer oxygen does help in controlling the growth of the tumors. It also reduces fatigue.

d. Zhineng Qigong
Started practicing qigong on 11 March 2010. Attend classes five times a week from 6.30am to 8am.

Health Status
No change to the weight which is around 68±1kgs. Body pain is minimal. Developed a new batch of mouth ulcers but so far only two ulcers. Throat feeling a little dry and may develop into full sore throat.

I have been eating a lot more lately, especially fruits. Switching back to potatoes and stewed vegetables did not give me much problems. Engery levels have improved and less tired in the afternoons.


Verdict
Quiet but a very good week.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Going Natural

This morning I woke up to slight pain around my shoulder blade area and my back. The last two days I spent sometime cutting down some two wild trees that grew very quickly in front of my house. I think if I leave it for a while longer, it will be more difficult to cut down. I believe the pain will go away after a few days. It has always been like this, do something strenuous and you get rewarded with pain. Today I will continue to cut down a plant that also grew too big with the saw and as I was wiping the saw blade with some oil, I lost concentration and one of my fingers was cut by the saw teeth. Really clumsy of me.

Not much happening with my daily routine other than yesterday when the tap ran dry for a few hours and only came back around 9am. Of course I am glad it did. Later I found out that the Water Works Dept was doing some work nearby. The next batch of mouth uncers have developed but other than that, I feel great.

Recently my wife told me how one reader of the Sun newspaper wrote to say she stopped using shampoo and only used water to wash her hair and now she is dandruff free. Well I tought why now try it myself and I have been using only water to wash and then massage my head since last week. I have been having dandruff problems for years despite using shampoo (mainly Selsun Yellow) and I get skin flakes all over my hair. Well I must admit my dandruff problem has somewhat improved. There are less flakes now. Hopefully over time, I will too be dandruff free.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Murphy's Law

When you are doing the Gerson Therapy(GT), there are some uneventful things I observed that will make it difficult for you to do the therapy. The following are events that I think will make life very difficult for me:

a. Power failure
b. No water supply
c. Car breakdown and
d. Juicer breakdown.

For items (c), I can still call the taxi and for item (d), I have arranged with the supplier for a temporary loan of a machine while it's being repaired. But for items (a) and (b), it can be a challenge. This morning, there was no water supply. I have of course kept some filtered water but it's only enough for cooking but I need lots of water for washing. Although there are reserve water, I can't use them for washing because the whole family needs that reserve too. My only hope is now at my mother's place where I will fetch some water. Her place is not affected by the water cut. My last resort of course is to buy filtered water from the hypermarkets. Alternatively I can move my juicer and vegetables to her home and park there temporary until the water supply comes back. I am lucky in that my mother lives close by but what about those that don't? For power failure, I do not have a backup plan other than at my mother's place. This is scary.

After a short break, I do not have any problems eating stewed vegetables and potatoes. Except a new batch of mouth ulcers is now forming, I have a relatively good time eating my lunch and dinner. No additional problems observed. So far so good.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

The Importance Of Pancreatic Enzymes

Before the body can deteriorate into cancer all the body's defense systems have to be depressed and out of balance. If your pancreas is working properly and if you have adequate pancreatic enzymes, you cannot develop cancer.

Pancreatic enzymes , trypsin in particular, disolve the protective protein coating which covers malignant tissue and makes it impossible for the body's natural immune defenses to recognize the cancer cells as foreign.


Dr. Gerson gave a lecture on his therapy in Escondido, California, in 1956 and you can read it here. When Dr. Lorraine Day, internationally acclaimed orthopedic trauma surgeon and Chief of Surgery at U.S. Hospital had invasive breast cancer, she rejected standard mutilating surgery, chemotherapy and radiation therapies. You can read her story here (scroll to the bottom of the page).

It's A Mental Game

You might have noticed that the last few weeks, I have reported very good progress as much of the problems experienced in the months of March and April have subsided. My experience with cancer is that when things are good, naturally you feel good but when things are not good, you not only feel lousy, you feel you may have lost further grounds to the tumors. Under such circumstances, when things are good obviously I feel very positive about everything. My wife have reminded me not to keep my hopes too high and put too much pressure on myself. In a way, it's also a mental problem and the ability to handle the mind will have tremendous impact on how one handles the problems encountered during the therapy. Yes, I have sometimes wondered during severe pain if I should just let go. Why must I go through so much pain just to live another day? These thoughts will soon come to pass for after a tunderstorm, there will be calm and then sunshine.

I have been learning qigong for almost 4 months now. I must say my progress is about average because qigong is unlike other exercises. In qigong we have to deal with a ball of invisible energy that you collect from the environment and then apply to cleanse the body. The mind must not only able to visualise and carry the ball of energy with the hands, it requires absolute concentration. I know of friends who have learned for 2 years without any results. Sometimes I do feel some form of energy around my hands but at other times, nothing. You may go to class everyday and still end up with nothing. Sigh...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Blue Skies And Everything Nice

My mouth ulcers are beginning to subside so I should expect a few peaceful days ahead before the next batch shows up. No further twitching were detected yesterday and I had a relative pain free day. As my stomach gases problem seems over, today I revert back to my potatoes and stewed vegetables for lunch and dinner, after a break of about 2 weeks.

I am feeling very good, the energy levels are up and my body seems normal like my pre cancer days. I really hope my body condition maintains and improves further and in any case, I will know my actual condition when I do my next scan in September 2010.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Ordinary Weekend

Yesterday I experience a little twitching around my rib area and also on the left shoulder blade for a short while. There is no growth or apparent pain when I press against the ribs and the shoulder blade areas. I am not sure what to make of it but will monitor for the next few days. Hopefully it's only a twitch. I am not sure if these could be due to the brown rice and pumpkin and sweet potatoes that I have been taking for lunch/dinner the last two weeks.

I did apply some oral aid to lessen the pain of the mouth ulcers particularly at night. It helped and now the pain from ulcers has subsided somewhat. Notwithstanding above, I still feel very good, generally pain free and have quite some energy to move about. I need to improve on my sleep though.

Although there is football fever all over the world, this time round I did not catch it. As I did not subscribe to Astro, so I only watch the 10pm TV1 telecast and did not bother to get up and watch the 2.30am match. I cannot afford to watch because I will feel very tired the next day. So it will most likely that I will miss all the semi-final matches onwards. I will try and catch the delayed telecast though. Maybe next round.

The rice dumplings that you see in the picture is made by my mother. Hakka clan's rice dumplings are normally much bigger than your average rice dumplings and we normally only use pork for the fillers. For health reasons, my mother defatted the meat before using them. As a result, the rice dumpling may not be that oily and as soft as it used to be but it is still very good. It takes 10 hours of boiling the dumplings in water before they are ready to be served. It's a day when the whole family look forward to because those that is bought cannot be compared at all not only in terms of size, quality but taste as well. Like the Chinese saying goes, nothing beats home cooking. But for me, these goodies will have to wait for at least another year.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Me And A Dog Named Bob


Yes, that's me and the dog that came to my house. So far the owner has not turn up nor did I see any notice put up about the lost dog at nearby houses or notice of lost dog at the pet food shop nearby. Don't get me wrong, I would like to keep the dog but I think it would be best to return to the owner as the first choice. My wife thinks it is unlikely the owner would show up because when we found the dog, the dog was not only smelly but full of lice all over its body, most likely the dog has been separated from the owner for quite sometime. The dog froze in fear when I approach to catch him and was shivering when I am holding him. Anyway we spend quite sometime to clean him up and today we will continue to delice him. This dog is quite obident and seldom barks. I have named all my dogs that I reared in the 70s and 80s as Bobby, so this dog will be also called Bobby!

So far, things have been better for me. As usual, the only complain is the 4 mouth ulcers that have developed fully. These little ulcers made it difficult for me to eat and also disrupted my sleep because I would wake up in the middle of the night because of that little pain. So I am a bit tired in the daytime and take an afternoon nap to help out.

Today is the 2nd day of the 5th month in the Chinese calendar, meaning there is 3 more days to the Rice Dumplings festival. I like to eat glutonuous rice dumplings (plain, stuffed with meat or red beans) made by my mother as she had done for the past 20 over years. Prior to that, my grandmother used to make them. As Hakkas, we do not used black sauce, so our rice dumplings are not dark in color (The dumplings shown in the picture is from Penang). This is also the first time I will not be able to eat them due to my illness but I am looking forward to next year to be able to eat the vegetarian rice dumplings.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Health Status @ 12 June 2010

New information are presented in italics.

Problem
Tumor mass of size of about 14cm on the right kidney and 21 and 23 over nodes all over my left and right lungs respectively with one up to 3cm in size on both lungs. Possibly also spread to the liver.

First detected on 11 September 2009 through CT Scan. Subsequent CT scan on 1 March 2010 showed some improvements on the larger nodes in the lungs but did not provide enough details on the smaller nodes. The primary tumor is now about 12.4cm, about the same size in October 2009. The two bigger nodes on the left and right lungs has reduced by about 1.5cm. However, a new node was detected about the size of 3.5cm x 3.7cm at the T6 area.

Prognosis
Consulted four urologists (one in Singapore and three in Malaysia) and two oncologists (one in Malaysia and one in Singapore). Both oncologists suggested removal of right kidney. Singapore urologist also suggested removal of kidney. The three urologists do not recommend surgery or chemotherapy. The last urologist consulted said most of his patients died within six months of surgery while two on the expensive (RM20K per month) drug Sutent is not responding. All agree that is no cure for the moment.

My urologist said my cancer is at stage 4 and did not recommend me to take any treatment. It is also my own choice not to take conventional treatment after considering all the facts of the case.

Schedule for next scan is on 1 September 2010.

MAIN THERAPIES
a. Modified Gerson Therapy
a1. Coffee Enema
Initially, four times a day for four weeks, every four hours apart. Currently three times a day in the morning, afternoon and evening for 15 minutes.

Commence castor oil enema from 23 January 2010.

a2. Nutrition Diet
All fruits and vegetables mentioned are organic.
i. Juicing - 11 fruit and vegetables juices a day beginning around 7am and ending 7pm. 5 apple+carrot, 2 carrot and 4 green vegetable juices every hourly. Liver supplements are taken together with carrot juices.
2. Diet - No oil, no sugar and no salt on all cooking. For breakfast and supper, mainly oats with some raisins, sometimes a little Manuka honey is added. For lunch and dinner, vegetables such as Siew Pak Choy, Lettuce, lady's fingers, cauliflower, broccoli and spinach are mainly steamed or boiled. K-salt is added for flavoring. A teaspoon of flaxseed oil is added when serving (but not during cooking). Mainly boiled potatoes and sometimes Somali organic brown rice is consumed. Hippocrates soup are also prepared every other day for daily consumption.
3. Supplements - K-salt, B12, niacin, lugol solution, pancreatin, pepsin and Q10.
4. Others - Rye bread, papaya, guavas, oranges and bananas are consumed at regular intervals.

b. Homeopathy Medicine
Consulting Doctor: DR AU Ramakrishnan MBBS, PhD, Chennai, India (http://www.drramakrishnan.com/)
Local Consultant: Vishuddi Lee
Treatment Started: 6 November 2009.
Consulting: Once every two months in Singapore. Next appointment 12 July 2010.
Reaction: No further reactions observed other than mouth ulcers every now and then.

COMPLEMENTARY THERAPIES
c. Oxygen Therapy
Started using a personal oxygen generator with effect from 8 March 2010 about 1 hour in the evening, 20 minutes per session. Richer oxygen does help in controlling the growth of the tumors. It also reduces fatigue.

d. Zhineng Qigong
Started practicing qigong on 11 March 2010. Attend classes five times a week from 6.30am to 8am.

Health Status
Weight has been maintained at about current levels of around the mid of 68±1kgs. Body pain is minimal. Developed four mouth ulcers, a bit painful and it has preventing me from eating normally. Stomach gases are also minimal. Sore throat that I expected to develop did not materialised. Not sure if this was due to the hydrogen peroxide ear treatment and Manuka honey that was administered.

Contuniung brown rice porridge for lunch and dinner for one more week and will revert back to potatoes and stewed vegetables. Taking of Q10 in the afternoon has helped my energy levels beside taking a afternoon nap.


Verdict
An enjoyable and good week.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Day 274 And Growing Stronger

Due to the visit by the surprise visitor, a silky terrier, much of my time this morning has been taken to clean the dog.

Anyway, today marks the beginning of the 10 month of my therapy. The last three months have been eventful, particularly for the March, April and first half of May 2010. My first six months of the therapy has been relative pain free and mostly problem free. However when I moved into the March month, I began to experience pain. Although the pain did not come from itself, every movement of my body caused it to pain, even the slightly movement like lifting the hand and even sleeping down. For two and a half month from March to mid May 2010, this was the case. This was a testing time for me because I had to handle so much negative thoughts during this period. I told myself that there must be some pain in the healing period before the body could get better. How do I know? I started searching the Internet for other people's blog and through their experience, I know I am on the right path. Some of the healing reactions include fevers, stomach gases, coughing of blood clots and abdominal pains.

As mysteriously the pain came, it went away and sometime in the mid of May the pain began to subside. The body begins to feel better followed by a slight increase in weight. Doing normal work did not cause me to breath frantically as before and in fact I had more energy. The stomach gases problem lingered a little longer until the about the last week of May and then slowly subsided. The only problem that was present from the start was the mouth ulcers.

I am now into the second half of the 2nd phase of the therapy. While the 1st phase is for stabilising the tumors, the 2nd phase involves the shrinking of the tumors. So far body indications are good and the next three months to Setpember will be focussing on this aspects of the therapy. Come September 2010, I will do another CT scan to access the actual situation. After that we will be moving to the 3rd phase of the therapy, root elemination.

A Surprise Visitor

My regular juicer broke down again yesterday. It seems to break down every four months. My supplier told me that the juicer is not meant for heavy use in the Gerson Therapy (GT) but that was the best available in the country. Anyway I like the after sale service provided by my supplier. After my SMS, they came within 2 hours and then gave me a temporary juicer of the same grade to use while they take back the unit for repairs. That's service with no extra costs. For GT followers, we cannot stopped juicing for long and buying another spare juicer would be a waste of funds. Therefore, it is important to buy from suppliers who can give that kind of service. Furthermore the price I paid to my supplier is not more expensive than many sold in the organic or specilaist shops.

The mouth ulcers which besides giving me some pain also caused me to eat a lot less. Other than that, I have no other complains. The stomach gases is no longer a problem. As to my tiredness due to lack of sleep, taking the Q10 in the afternoon does help me to be more enegetic. Of course the afternoon nap also helps very much.

This morning I got a surprise visitor. A silky terrier was loitering inside my house compound (not the one in the picture). He is not very well kept, smelly, skinny and worst of all, full of lices all over the body. Either this dog has lost its owner for quite sometime or the owner did no have time to take care of the dog. I like dogs but the last time I reared a dog was way back in the 80s. I did not keep any dogs because I could not find the time to look after them. My eldest daughter asked if she could keept the dog if the owner does not came back and claim? I told her looks like we have to. I quickly took the dog to my mother's place so that we could clean him up immediately while we await for the owner to show up.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

So You Want To Do Chemotherapy

I think almost everyone would consult a sepcialist and the oncologist for cancer treatment. These doctors will only recommend 4 kinds of treatment namely surgery, radiation, chemotherapy and no treatment (late cases). They are not allowed to recommend anything else for fear of medical suits and also the medical association taking action against them and barring them from practicing medicine. That's why even when they have no treatment for you, they will not and cannot recommend anything else. I know because I am one of the patient.

I just spoke to someone whose sister has lung cancer and she told me the reason why her sister took chemotherapy was on advise of the doctor. So as a patient, you must understand this cancer game and take steps by reading on your own to get more about the treatment itself. You cannot blame it on the doctor because he has no other choice but you do. Although we are not doctors, we have the right and can still get balanced view about chemotherapy. Don't just rely on the doctors know best attitude, understand what the therapy is all about. The picture on the left shows what happens when chemo is accidentally spilled on the hand. Imagine if this is purposely injected into your body! The best part is that she said she knows chemo is poison but yet they proceeded. Just after two courses, she is now very weak, losing her voice and I believe overtime, lose more things.

Get cancer and you are expected to die, so what's wrong with that? To most people, when someone dies of cancer, well it's acceptable because there are no known effective cure for the moment. So please do not accept this kind of attitude and mentality because it does not have to be this way. I respect that each and everyone of us have the right to chose whichever therapy one prefers. All I am asking of you is to seek more information first from other reliable sources before making the decision.

A MUST SEE video called A World Without Cancer can be seen here.

Feeling Good But Tired

The last two days I was very tired because I did not have my afternoon nap as I was busy running some errands. As a result, I took two days off from my qigong exercises to have a little bit more sleep. It helped a bit of course but I need more. The mouth ulcers have developed fully and now giving me pain now and then. Because one of the ulcers is on my tongue, it is also affecting my ability to eat in peace. I did use some oral aid to help manage the pain. Although my appitite is good, I am not stuffing my stomach full. This way, the body feel a little better. I am continuing to enjoy the calmness of the relativly pain free body.

Of late, a number of my friends and even my daughter has asked for more information about Gerson Therapy. I am saddened by this because their friends or loved ones are suffering from cancer, a number of them having exercised conventional treatment but the cancer spread further. The step-father of my daughter's college mate who hails from South Africa is suffering from severe side effects of the chemo. The cancer has also spread to the lungs and liver.

35% of the cause of cancer is due to diet. I hope that those people who are suffering from cancer, especially those taking conventional treatment, to change their diet immediately. It could help them in their therapy and get better results.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Need To Have More Rests

My throat has been holding for the last few days despite there are signs that it will turn for the worst. I continue to take Manuka honey and also drip hydrogen peroxide into the ears to help improve the situation. My mouth ulcers is getting worst with three ulcers starting to give me more pain. A friend, Kok Piew who was on holiday visiting his daughter in USA was very kind and bought me a gel called Orajel to help me managed the ulcers. I normally do not use any form of oral aid unless the pain is stopping me from sleeping or eating.

My appitite is very good and I am eating 50% more than previously during my lunch and dinner. Despite eating so much, I still get this feeling that I am not full. I think the muscles in my buttocks are continuing to grow back as I can sit more comfortably now. Energy levels are good and the pain is almost unfelt. The only complain I have besides mouth ulcers is lack of sleep.

I give you a rundown of my typical daily timetable:

a. 6.00am - Get up, exercise and brush teeth. 7.00am if weekends.
b. 6.15am - Prepare juices and oatmeal for breakfast.
c. 6.30am - Qigong exercises. Ends at 8.30am. No qigong on weekends.
d. 8.30am - Start boiling coffee and prepare next juicing.
e. 9.00am - Straining coffee and store it.
f. 9.30am - Next juicing.
g. 9.45am - Coffee enema.
h. 10.30am - Next juicing and then oatmeal for morning teatime.
i. 11.30am - Next juicing and warm up Hippocrates soup for lunch.
j. 12.15pm - Lunch.
k. 1.00pm - Afternoon nap. Wake up at 2.15pm.
l. 2.30pm - Start of afternoon juicing.
m. 2.45pm - Every other day, prepare Hippocrates soup. Completes 2 hours later.
n. 3.30pm - Next juicing.
o. 3.40pm - Afternoon enema and then bath.
p. 4.30pm - Next juicing and then oatmeal for afternoon teatime.
q. 4.45pm - Rest time incluing taking nap if necessary.
r. 5.45pm - Next juicing and warm up Hippocrates soup for dinner.
s. 7.00pm - Last juicing for the day.
t. 7.30pm - Dinner.
u. 8.15pm - Start taking Homeopathy medication. Ends at 10.30pm. No food or water intake allowed during this period.
v. 8.30pm - Night enema.
w. 10.45pm - Oatmeal for supper.
x. 11.00pm - Goodnight.

As you can see, my whole day is really packed and of course in between juicing, I will go for marketing, read emails, update my blog, surf the net and run errands.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Know Your Therapy Before You Begin

Last night, I organised some of my previous blog postings and classified them into similar topics to allow for easy searching. I have received some email requests for more information about Gerson Therapy (GT) and I realised that the current diary format of my blog posting would not allow a new visitor to get the information quickly.

Yesterday I received a email request for some clarification on certain aspects of GT. The writer whom I will called KK said his wife is now doing GT and would like to know a few other points. From his questions asked, I am quite certain that the GT materials that he is using may not be complete and most likely he did not understand what GT involves. I know the GT book is quite thick and maybe a little difficult to read but I think anyone who wants to do GT on their own MUST read and read, then understand the therapy before they begin. I am not saying I am an expert (actually far from it) but from my own experience, an understanding would help answer some of the basic questions like forbidden foods and detoxing. Yes some other information like body pains and healing reactions might require some experience and guidance but Dr Gerson has also provided some basic information on these matters as well.

My main concern is the some people mistakenly think if you are doing juicing, then you must be doing GT. They also think one must also detox the various individual organs in the body. Worst still, some people who do not know much about GT is actually providing the information! Many other therapies also recommends juicing, though in different manner of preparation and drinking intensity. Juicing is only one of the three main pillars of GT while Dr Gerson has only approved coffee enema as the main detox method. All this confusion came about because the person doing GT did not read the book. Dr Gerson did not just write about the therapy itself but the underlying theory that led to his therapy. Understanding these will help one answer some questions about certain things even though it may not have been mentioned in the book because we are guided by the principles.

So I really hope people doing GT on their own, please ask yourself this question. Did you read the official book on GT? You may get bit and pieces of information in the Internet and even a summarised copy of GT but it is still not complete. You can buy a copy at Newlife International at SS2 or from the Gerson Institute. Don't put your life or your love ones life in more danger than already is.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Quite Busy Day

Today I have some errands to run and was really busy. I just came back and quickly update today's blog. I have to take my daughter to her Grade 8 Trinity practical examination and will be away much of the afternoon. After dropping off her at the examination center, I quickly headed for Newlife International to buy some supplies of the supplements. As a result, I had to change my juicing and coffee enema schedule to fit in the timing. I am glad that it's over for today. However, this Thursday she will be taking her final Grade 5 (highest grade, lowest being Grade 13) Yamaha Peformance examination.

The throat is still quite dry and I noticed my body temperature is slightly higher than usual since yesterday. When I came back this afternoon, my throat was really dry and I could almost feel the sore throat coming. I quickly took a tea spoonful of Manuka honey. Today I also feel very hungry despite eating quite a lot of porridge. Maybe it was due to the Hippocrates soup which was a little watery, not enough body to fill the stomach. Anyway I took oatmeal and also some fruits to help out. Up till now, the body has been good with minimal pain and the stomach gases is also minimal. However, two mouth ulcers have developed. No problemo, I can handle this problem easily.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Start Of The Recovery Process?

Yesterday morning, my throat was very dry when I woke up. I continue to take a tea spoonful of Manuka honey. After taking my first juice, I took breakfast together with the supplements, among them Niacin (100mg). When I finished breakfast, the Niacin starts to take effect and I felt blood rushing to my face. Just that moment, I felt blood flowing down on my left nostrils. I do get nose bleeding, sometimes once in a year especially for the last three years. Normally when this happen, my body is very "heaty" and I cool it down by drinking some Chinese herbal tea. I quickly sat down and used some tissues to stop the flow and after about 2 minutes I was back on my feet. I have sinusitis and when sometimes when I clear my nose too hard, it bleeds too. I also have tinnitus. Yes, indeed I am born with quite some defects but I have learn to cope with it since I was a kid and was aware of such things. I used to visit the ENT at KL General Hospital very regularly in the 70s for treatment, but unfortunately not much progress was made.

This morning the throat was also very dry but still no sore throat. My body does feel very warm and I think "internal heat" in Chinese terminology, is building up due to the lack of sleep. One of the problems that I have is that I get up two to three times a night for night urine and this disturbs my sleep. This is due to the amount of juices that I take in the day. I noticed that other patients doing the Gerson Therapy also get up for night urine. I catch up by taking a nap in the afternoon.

For the last two weeks, things has improved very much ever since the body pain has subsided. I am gaining back some weight (mainly because I can eat more with the brown rice porridge and absence of stomach gases) and my buttocks is also building back some muscles as I could sit more comfortable now. I hope this is the start of the long recovery process.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Health Status @ 5 June 2010

New information are presented in italics.

Problem
Tumor mass of size of about 14cm on the right kidney and 21 and 23 over nodes all over my left and right lungs respectively with one up to 3cm in size on both lungs. Possibly also spread to the liver.

First detected on 11 September 2009 through CT Scan. Subsequent CT scan on 1 March 2010 showed some improvements on the larger nodes in the lungs but did not provide enough details on the smaller nodes. The primary tumor is now about 12.4cm, about the same size in October 2009. The two bigger nodes on the left and right lungs has reduced by about 1.5cm. However, a new node was detected about the size of 3.5cm x 3.7cm at the T6 area.

Prognosis
Consulted four urologists (one in Singapore and three in Malaysia) and two oncologists (one in Malaysia and one in Singapore). Both oncologists suggested removal of right kidney. Singapore urologist also suggested removal of kidney. The three urologists do not recommend surgery or chemotherapy. The last urologist consulted said most of his patients died within six months of surgery while two on the expensive (RM20K per month) drug Sutent is not responding. All agree that is no cure for the moment.

My urologist said my cancer is at stage 4 and did not recommend me to take any treatment. It is also my own choice not to take conventional treatment after considering all the facts of the case.

Schedule for next scan is on 1 September 2010.

MAIN THERAPIES
a. Modified Gerson Therapy
a1. Coffee Enema
Initially, four times a day for four weeks, every four hours apart. Currently three times a day in the morning, afternoon and evening for 15 minutes.

Commence castor oil enema from 23 January 2010.

a2. Nutrition Diet
All fruits and vegetables mentioned are organic.
i. Juicing - 11 fruit and vegetables juices a day beginning around 7am and ending 7pm. 5 apple+carrot, 2 carrot and 4 green vegetable juices every hourly. Liver supplements are taken together with carrot juices.
2. Diet - No oil, no sugar and no salt on all cooking. For breakfast and supper, mainly oats with some raisins, sometimes a little Manuka honey is added. For lunch and dinner, vegetables such as Siew Pak Choy, Lettuce, lady's fingers, cauliflower, broccoli and spinach are mainly steamed or boiled. K-salt is added for flavoring. A teaspoon of flaxseed oil is added when serving (but not during cooking). Mainly boiled potatoes and sometimes Somali organic brown rice is consumed. Hippocrates soup are also prepared every other day for daily consumption.
3. Supplements - K-salt, B12, niacin, lugol solution, pancreatin, pepsin and Q10.
4. Others - Rye bread, papaya, guavas, oranges and bananas are consumed at regular intervals.

b. Homeopathy Medicine
Consulting Doctor: DR AU Ramakrishnan MBBS, PhD, Chennai, India (http://www.drramakrishnan.com/)
Local Consultant: Vishuddi Lee
Treatment Started: 6 November 2009.
Consulting: Once every two months in Singapore. Next appointment 12 July 2010.
Reaction: No further reactions observed other than mouth ulcers every now and then.

COMPLEMENTARY THERAPIES
c. Oxygen Therapy
Started using a personal oxygen generator with effect from 8 March 2010 about 1 hour in the evening, 20 minutes per session. Richer oxygen does help in controlling the growth of the tumors. It also reduces fatigue.

d. Zhineng Qigong
Started practicing qigong on 11 March 2010. Attend classes five times a week from 6.30am to 8am.

Health Status
Weight continues to improve by another 0.5kg and now weighs around the mid of 68±1kgs. Body pain is minimal. Ulcer free for much of the whole of last week but new developing ulcers has been detected. Stomach gases are also minimal. Although did not get full sore throat last week, another attact in coming week is imminent.

Enjoying a slight change in diet on brown rice porridge for lunch and dinner and this has helped because I do not get stomach gases after eating. Only complain is a little tired at times, not getting enough sleep.


Verdict
Very good week, relatively calm and peaceful.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Peaceful Friday

I thought the sore throat would reappear this morning but it did not. However, I do feel that it is gathering steam to strike because I felt my throat kind of dry. As usual, I took another tea spoonful of Manuka honey. This evening, I would try the hyrdogen peroxide treatment suggested by Joanne. At the present moment, I am enjoying the peace and calmness. Energy levels are higher. The body feels well though another bout of mouth uclers should occur anytime now. Stomach gases is still there but it is not posing any major problems and more importantly, not stopping me from eating.

Yesterday I had dinner or rather accompanied my ex-colleagues for dinner. We last met about 6 months ago. Its good to see them but like all professionals, they seems to be stressed out because of their jobs. I always wondered. I have worked in MNCs and noticed that my Western counterparts surely do not work as hard as us Malaysian. Yet their profits are so many times higher. Same company but Malaysian based and we worked days and nights, completely stressed out! So when one of them told me he has an opportunity to work overseas, I told him to jump at it. Not just for the money but for the experience as well.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

There Are Viable Alternatives

The tranquility of the last few days was punctured this morning. At about 5am, I was awaken by a sore throat. Historically, I think over the last decade, I get tonsillitis attack once a year. This would normally last for about a week and during the early stages, besides a painful sore throat, I would also get fever for about two days. After recovery, it would not disturb me until a year later. Very rarely I would get another attack within the same year. I drank some water to ease the dryness of the throat and it helped a bit. When I woke up at 6am, I took a tea spoonful of organic Manuka honey to soothe the sore throat. After I came back from my qigong exercise, the sore throat pain was gone but I know this is not the end of the story. It will come back again the next few days and I am bracing for another round of fevers. I am not sure if I should see a doctor to get antibiotics when it manifests itself fully.

In the Letters to DJ program at 988 FM radio yesterday, a listener wrote in to ask if he should inform his parents that he has three months left to live. This program allows listeners to offer their opinions and experiences. One said he should accept the reality and start to prepare his final arrangements. Still some others advised that he should not give up and get second opinion or talk to other doctors for a possible cure. In Malaysia, there is actually no short of alternative treatments, from more established alternative medicine like Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) to faith healers, miracle doctors and even bomohs (witchcraft). However, there are not many information that you can gather on such alternative treatment. Most of them do not publish nor have records of their success of treatment, most often relying on recommendation of friends who heard that he can do this or that. For more established alternatives like TCM, the problem is finding the right master who has the expertise to treat you. For me, I am not comfortable just based on recommendation. I am the type who needs to know what is the treatment about. I tried to call in to participate but could not get through neither can I write an email because I don't read or write Mandarin. So it looks like this person is resigned to his fate and this is really sad.

For me, it was by luck I discovered the video Healing Cancer From Insider Out. I watched the video and found out about Gerson Therapy (GT). I visited almost all the organic shops in Subang Jaya/USJ which I believe has the largest concentration in Klang Valley. Unfortunately, not one of them knows about Gerson Therapy. After a search from the Net, I found out about Newlife International that promotes GT and that's how I got started. Although this blog was started to record my last days on earth, but when the therapy began to show some positive results, I thought it would be good to use myself as an example to educate people like you that there is still another way. I do not consider GT as miracle because miracles happens only very rarely. Tens of thousands have been cured using GT over the last 80 years, hence you don't need a miracle to cure yourself.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Relaxing Midweek

The last couple of days, nothing much happened. Morning go for qigong exercises then juices and coffee enemas. Body feels good. I am still eating brown rice porridge with pumpkin or sweet potatoes for lunch and dinner. I noticed that sometimes the stomach gases build up when I am hungry, especially in the evening when I pick up my daughter from school at about 7pm. The stomach gases, though not so frequent now is still giving me the creeps. It can really turn my day upside down.

Yesterday an ex-colleague which I last met 10 months ago called. Apparently he was not aware of my health condition wondering why I had not kept in touch the last few months. During the catch up conversation, I also found out another ex-colleague is having cancer and she is now resting at home. That's really sad. Everyone I speak to nowdays seems to tell me this or that person is having some form of cancer. Apparently, 35% of causes of cancer comes from the diet we take. In our quest to make food taste better, a lot of additives or food enhancers have been added. By the way, some of the vegetarian food which are sold in Malaysia (such as char siew, siew ngap and the like) are made with synthetic chemicals to make them taste like their meat counterparts. According to a friend of mine (who ironically is a salesman who peddles such products) those synthetic chemical are very harmful to the body. Please don't each such stuffs! Just stick to vegerables and keep away from processed vegetarian foods.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Can We Eat To Starve Cancer?

Every now and then I receive emails from friends telling me about some cancer inhibiting foods. I have said this before and will say it again. Most of these information are directed to people WITHOUT cancer in the hope that the consumption of the food will help in the prevention of cancer. I received one yesterday and you can view the video clip on anti-angiogenesis. It is a very good presentation and many of the information presented are not new. Eating of foods to starve cancer are being used by various therapies. After viewing the video, I am tempted to abadoned what I am doing and take this therapy because it claimed over 80% success rate for metastases kidney cancer. But wait! The video is a presentation of the possibilities and I believe for it to be successful, it should be packaged with what the cancer patients can do. Many information are left out and it is up to the person to ask the right questions and this is where the danger is. Of course the better way is to talk to those people in the know so that they can work out a complete program for you. But for many of us, costs is always a problem and what if you cannot get that kind of help? You will be tempted to self administer like what I am doing. However, Dr Gerson wrote a book and packaged the complete therapy that anyone who cares to read it will be able to follow. What about this or other therapies that you receive by emails? What is the package and where do you find it? Are you going to mix and match yourself and hopefully you will not perish in the process. CANCER PATIENTS ARE VERY DESPERATE AND WILL TRY ANYTHING! I repeat, so as friends who are not inflicted with cancer with a clear mind, please be mindful of what you send to cancer patients. A recent case highlighted in The Star is a good example wherein a cancer patient was cheated of RM46K (which she borrowed from relatives and friends) because she found out from friends that this healer in Shah Alam can do heal cancer demonstrates the desperateness.

I am now in the closing stages of the 9 month of therapy. I will summarise for you on June 11 what happened during the last three months, which to me was the most difficult period of the therapy so far. I have structured my therapy in phases. This is my doing and not part of the Gerson protocol. You see, when you do your therapy in stages, you can check your own milestones as you go along. Rather than walk in a dark tunnel and hoping to see the light one of these days, breaking up the journey will give you some indication of progress which to me is is important. It's a form of check and encouragement that I need to help me get along. Friends have been asking me how I am doing and my standard reply was still trying my best illustrates the case. They must be wondering after 9 months, still the same kind of reply?

The last week or so has been very good and I feel my condition should improve further in the coming months. No pain! You know what this means to a cancer patient? I wish I have recovered but sometimes wishful thinking can do wonders. Maybe I have or maybe it's only a temporary reprieve. I will only know when I do my next scan in September 2010.