Straight From The Heart

Most of the materials that I write in my blog are just my daily journals of what I am going through and some other literature on alternative therapies. I noticed that when I write about emotions, especially dark ones, about life and death, the theme of religion often pop up. I would like to offer you an alternative view. Seek and you shall find. Today, I want to touch on the topic of emotions, an area that I am extremely uncomfortable but I realised that I can no longer avoid this topic when I had cancer. Bear in mind, I am no expert on this area and it's about my own realisation and also my observation about people around me.

It is very common for those with cancer to have a long-standing tendency to suppress "toxic emotions", particularly anger. Their inability to resolve deep-seated emotional problems and conflicts, usually beginning in childhood, often even being unaware of their presence. Over the past ten years, medical doctor / surgeon Ryke-Geerd Hamer has examined 20,000 cancer patients with all types of cancer. He noticed that all his cancer patients seemed to have something in common: there had been some kind of psycho emotional conflict prior to the onset of their disease - usually a few years before - a conflict that had never been fully resolved. Negative thoughts such as death wish are manifestations of some unresolved emotional issues. Unless, these issues are probed and resolved, a person will continue to repeat these cycle of thoughts. Becoming aware of it is the first step and it does not mean it will happen. We are brought up not to think about such things and over time it became a taboo.

I noticed that when I do write about something very dark, I will get some feedback from some of my friends and readers. I think at this juncture, I would like to clarify yesterday's post. I think by the reactions, I believe I have succeeded in bringing you into my shoes. I just like you to experience from my point of view what I am going through. Secondly, just because I write in a dark language, that does not mean I am losing hope or have become suicidal. On the contrary, I am aware that there are some negative emotions that are in me that I need to work on and release it. That's all. I may have dramatize it a bit but that is to get your attention. That you may have neglected your emotional well being.

My sifu has taught me well to probe and deal with such emotions. She said much of it are grounded in fear and could be attributed to the ways we were brought up. Many people refuse to acknowledge or may not be aware of such emotions and attribute it to somethings else. Often, such negative emotions are associated with parents, siblings, spouse and children. The mind fear the confrontation with close ones which it believes will lead to breakdown in relationships and hence the need to avoid dealing with it. You may think all these are mumbo-jumbo but you can read about it in Dr Hamer's German New Medicine or other emotional therapy books. A Google search with the words "cancer and emotion" showed 21,600,00 results! During my early cancer days, I would often feel depressed and cry but I don't know why. I was not in touch with my emotions. I can tell you over the last few months, I have successfully use this technique to release many of my negative emotions. I am much happier now but there are still a lot of work to be done.

This is one awakening I got from my cancer.