Monday, February 21, 2011

Savour The Moment

You might be wondering on one hand, I have been crying in pain not so long ago and now I talk about making some traveling plans. Perhaps the frequent changing nature of my condition serves as a reminder that I better make good use of the time that has been given to me.

I can safely say every cancer patients suffers from pain and the degree of pain is reflected in their stage of the cancer. Further when you are a stage 4 cancer patient, many things becomes uncertain. For me, I do not know how much time I have left. At the moment, I do feel I still have certain mileage left and hence would like to take this opportunity to travel. However, I am also been told to rest more often and when I do travel I will be on an unapproved diet further complicating or worsening my condition. But that's the equation I have to balance. Do you wait for recovery and then travel? That day may never come. On the other hand, if I do travel will I risk my condition? I really do not have the answers. However, what I do know is that at this moment, that's what I want to do.

Today, I woke up to a sunny sky. Again I overslept but I did have a good rest. I feel good and it's been a long time I had this feeling.


  1. Chang,
    Life is short, do what you want and can afford.

    Planning keeps one's spirit up and person motivated.

    Go on plan.
    Good to read you feel better today.

    Take care

    From Bee Tin

  2. I am very happy to hear you are feeling better!
    Hopefully, you will continue to progress...and see your dreams come true.

    My Thoughts are with you.


  3. Chang,

    So u r a Sentul naughty boy, yeah, as u managed yr early education without putting much efforts, I am sure you could also win this battle now, perhaps travel is one of the god-sent strategy, but do reflect what the Mexico trip has provided as a learning curve.

    Family is always the most valuable assets one can possibly ever have,Cheers

  4. Follow the path of your own heart.

    I am very happy that you woke up feeling good and that you are making plans to enjoy your time. As you have probably learned, mental blockages play a big role in our illness. Maybe you have been feeling trapped and burdened by the intensive nature of your therapies. You have been dedicated for a long time, and maybe you need a break to sustain you. I encourage you to trust yourself.