Yesterday, I have been experiencing pain attacks all over my body. Not just my right abdominal area buy my ribs, my back, stomach and pelvic area too. It was very bad towards the evening. I have to take a double dose of painkillers to control the pain. Every time the pain comes, my mind is filled with negative thoughts. These are the times I feel vulnerable. I question my own ability to sustain these onslaught of pain. And a host of other negative questions. At the same time, my mind is also dull and I feel sleepy and tired. And as usual, I would spent a lot of time lying down to rest.
I have also been felling feverish and chills over my body. I am not sure if these are the side effects of the metronomic chemotherapy that I am now taking. I am due to take a blood test to check on my RBC and I have scheduled it for tomorrow morning.
My project to gain weight is not very successful. I am still having some problems with digestion and as such, I have not been eating much, just enough to sustain for the day. And I have also been taking mostly liquid food such as rice porridge and oatmilk. Sometimes I feel hungry but when I start to eat, I can eat only a little.