In the past, I used to say fight this cancer and it has not done me any good. Every few months, I would go for a CT scan and then find out whether the cancer has spread or reduced in size. What I have is a lot of anxiety when I find out that my kidney tumor has say shrunk 1cm but my lung nodules have grown larger in size. Then in another scan, it shows that the lung tumors has shrunk a bit but my kidney tumor has grown back the 1cm. What does all these developments tells you? Am I getter better or worst? How does it helps me? It has caused me more heartache than anything else. Then I decided to abandoned this "fight" and stopped the CT scan. Instead I will just listen to my body.
Have you every tried to put on a smile everyday? I am sure that is a lot of work. The same goes for staying positive. However you look at it, the cancer is a part of me. So when you curse the cancer, I think you are also cursing a part of yourself. What I am doing now is to process and interpret the events differently. Instead of cursing and fighting, I would be more kinder and more compassionate to myself. To love myself more and to feel the love that is flowing inside of me. In this way, heart and mind will be peaceful and staying positive become so natural.
When the mind is happy, it secrets a chemical know as endorphins. Endorphins are among the brain chemicals known as neurotransmitters, which function to transmit electrical signals within the nervous system. Endorphins can be found in the pituitary gland, in other parts of the brain, or distributed throughout the nervous system. In addition to decreased feelings of pain, secretion of endorphins leads to feelings of euphoria, modulation of appetite, release of sex hormones, and enhancement of the immune response. With high endorphin levels, we feel less pain and fewer negative effects of stress.
I have been a bit busy the last two days. I just got myself engaged in a little part time work and I got some catch-up work to do. I am getting a lot pain from abdominal area. My appetite is a challenge. Otherwise, I am feeling good.