Friday, May 11, 2012

Inspiring or What?

One of the area of my interest is life after death which also includes near death experiences (NDE). I was researching the net for something on NDE specifically on cancer patients. I read a number cases but none were as astounding as that of Anita Moorjani. Her NDE is completely different to anything I have read because there was no light, tunnel, no religious figure, and she did not see my whole life flash before her eyes.  She said while she was experiencing it, she had no idea that she was experiencing an NDE or an out of body experience.  It felt very normal at the time.  It was only after that she realized she had slipped to another dimension. Anita had cancer (Hodgkin's Lymphoma), and she was rushed to the hospital by her husband, after doing the scans, she was diagnosed with grade 4B lymphoma (the highest grade). The senior oncologist reported that it was too late, that her organs were now shutting down and only had 36 hours to live. She was in a coma the whole time and “crossed over” to another dimension, where she was engulfed in a total feeling of love. She had the choice of whether to come back into life, or go towards death. She chose to come back to life and her cancer disappeared within days and she recovered fully. Her doctors were baffled and could not explained what happened. She is now sharing with everyone that miracles are possible in life every day.  She realize that absolutely anything is possible, and that we did not come here to suffer.  Life is supposed to be great, and we are very, very loved. In her own words, from her book Dying To Be Me: My Journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing

As I experienced my biggest revelation, it felt like a bolt of lightening. I understood that merely by being the love I truly am, I would heal both myself and others. I’d never understood this before, yet it seemed so obvious. If we’re all One, all facets of the same Whole, which is unconditional love, then of course who we are is love! I knew that was really the only purpose of life: to be our self, live our truth, and be the love that we are. [pg. 63]

While I was in that state of clarity in the other realm, I instinctively understood that I was dying because of all my fears. I wasn’t expressing my true self because my worries were preventing me from doing so. I understood that the cancer wasn’t a punishment or anything like that. It was just my own energy, manifesting as cancer because my fears weren’t allowing me to express myself as the magnificent force I was meant to be. [pg. 76]

This is a very interesting and inspirational account of one person's NDE. There are still many unanswered questions for me though. I have been thinking some of the things she said, especially on why she had cancer. It offers another view of healing this disease. This bring back to the question of negative thoughts and emotions. It's no joke having to constantly maintain positive thoughts. Day in and day out, I am faced with my own condition. I think the key out of this situation is my own attitude towards my own condition. It's how I perceive and interpret my own struggles. If I process my thoughts differently, then I can shift my life to something for rather than against me. I accept myself without complain. I also accept life without complain. That's free flow of positive energy.


  1. Dear Mr. Chang,

    Recently I have highlighted the book "The Bojjhangas: Medicine that Makes all Diseases Disappear". It is very much related to Vipassana Meditation. I strongly believe the experiences of Anita is what Vipassana is all about. Please correct me if I am wrong.

    Wishing you all the best.

    Andy Gan

  2. Chang,

    sorry it is very 'deep' , can't understand, since it helps you it must be good for you


    1. Hi KP,

      Prior to my cancer days, I got no idea of the things I am writing about now. I don't know anything about alternative cancer treatments.I also don't know of any of the psychological stuffs as well.

      Like the durian fruit, when the time is ripe the fruit will drop down.
      No sooner. If you pluck the fruit even a day earlier, you will not be able to eat the fruit. I believe everyone will have an awakening. Some people will get it an earlier age and some at a later age. However you can plant a seed in yourself to start the awakening process. How about reflecting on who are you? Why are you on earth and the purpose of your life?

      I am sharing this is because I may have discover the awareness a little too late because I may not have much time left due to my cancer. This awareness will help you have better relationships, live a better life and be more peaceful with yourself.

      What is sad is that many only realised about this when they are dying. I am telling you, it is not necessarily to wait till you die to do all these. Its your choice. You can start now and live a full life.

  3. Dear Chang
    I believe you have been given "extra" time come to think of it. Remember Redang trip in 2006? You were almost drown. Maybe that was your wake-up call then. I am proud that you stay positive in your struggle with cancer. By keeping a journal of your journey, perhaps that its your destiny to help others who share the same fate. Keep up the good work !


    1. Dear Elaine,

      Sadly, I responded differently from that near drowning incident. Instead of reflecting on my life, I took the view based on a Chinese saying "A person who did not die from tragedy will experience prosperity".

      Of course, that is a wrong view. But now with my cancer, since I did not die within 6 months, I have been given the "extra" time that you mentioned, though I wish that it came under different circumstances.