Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Lessons In The Making

Last night, I woke up a few times throughout the night. I was not sure of the abdominal pain or the night urine that woke me up. Each time I woke up, I could not remember whether I took the pain killer or not. After I woke up the third time, I thought I will just take a tablet because I was still feeling painful. I reason that had I taken the pain killer earlier, I should not have feel so painful but I just can't remember. I am not remembering well even for a short while. My mind is not clear and I can tell. It's dull, not sure from the effects of the medications.

While resting in bed, I have been listening to some hypnosis, affirmation and meditation tapes. Hypnosis and mediation uses similar entry techniques, to relax and calm the mind and become concentrated and peaceful. They are both very powerful self development tools, but that is where the similarity ends. Hypnosis the focus is on the subconscious, and in understanding and reprogramming past negative learned behaviours. Hypnosis as I learned is a tool for dealing with the past, and by dealing positively with the past it can help create very positive futures. Affirmations is a form of self-hypnosis where a word or a phrase is repeated over and over as a means of reprogramming our subconscious. In meditation the focus is on the consciousness and the present moment. They are only thoughts and they do not control me unless I allow it to be. I do get disappointed or when I feel depressed over some past events, I will try to help myself through listening of such recordings. I find it very useful as it can help and guide me.

In the past, I used to think that it's my bad fortune when something or a bad event (actually any event, even good) happened to me. I now believe that things don't happen in random and the event happens for a reason. When there is a lesson to be learned, the teacher will appear and the event is the lesson. I reflect on what happened and each lesson no matter how painful it is, like my cancer, teaches me something. Ever since, I took a different view of how to interpret such events, I am beginning to untie many of the knots in my life. I can feel the transformation and also live more peacefully.

I have a follow-up post tomorrow, a surprise even for myself. Please be sure to come back and read.


  1. I was reading this morning the website of Dr. Nicholas Gonzalez and looked at case reports. I looked at kidney cancer. He states this about interleukin 2.

    "Renal cell carcinoma, the most common form of kidney cancer, accounts for 90-95% of all cases. In this type, the disease begins in the epithelial lining cells of the proximal tubules and if localized, can be cured in well over 50% of patients with surgery alone. (2) Once the disease metastasizes, it usually spreads quickly with deadly results. Conventional therapies such as chemotherapy and immune modulation offer little benefit. As Harrison’s reports bluntly, “Investigational therapy is first-line treatment for metastatic disease as no immune approach or chemotherapeutic agent has shown significant antitumor activity.” (3) Interleukin-II, once heralded as a miracle cure in the mid 1980’s based on anecdotal evidence, in controlled clinical trials worked no better than placebo."

    I hope your research is better than this brief report.

    1. Hi John,

      Thanks for the information. I have other clinical trial report on using high dose IL-2 and the result was good. I guess the results would always depend on the experience of the doctors and condition of the patient. What worked for one does not necessary work for another.

      When the cancer has metastasized, it's always an uphill battle.