Have a beautiful day!

I received this beautiful message via email from a friend and I would like to share it with you.

RE-BIRTH

I lost a childhood toy …
but have the memory of the person who gave me that gift with unconditional love.

I lost the privileges and fantasies of childhood …
but had the opportunity of growing and living free.

I lost a lot of people whom I loved and still love …
but had the affection and now have model from their lives.

I lost moments of life because I cried instead of smiling …
but I discovered that: it is from planting love that love is harvested.

I lost many things many times in my life. But in that “loss,” today I aspire for the value of “gain;” … because it is always possible to fight for that which we love; and because there is always time to start all over again.

It is not important the time of life when you tired. Important is that it is always possible and necessary to restart. Re-birthing is a new opportunity; it is renewing the hopes in life; and more importantly, it is believing in oneself.

Did you suffer greatly sometime?
… that was a time for learning.

Did you cry a lot?
… you were cleansing the soul.

Did you feel spiteful?
... it was a lesson on forgiveness.

At times, were you alone?
... it was because you closed the door.

Were there times you believed everything was lost?
... it was simply the beginning of your improvement.

Did you feel lonely?
Look around you and you will see people waiting for your smile, just to get closer to you.

Re-birth.
Today is an excellent day to start a new life project. Where do you want to go?
Look higher, dream higher, desire the best; life brings us what we aspire.

If we think small; the small will come. If we think firmly on the best,
on the positive and we strive for it; the best will come in our lives.

Today is the great mental cleaning day. Throw away all that binds you to the
past; all that hurts you. Discard everything into garbage; clean your
heart; prepare it for a new life, and for new love; for we are passionate. We are
capable of loving many times, because we are the manifestation of love.

Life calls you; it invites you to a new adventure, a new journey, a new
challenge. This day, promise yourself: that you will do anything possible to achieve your objectives; trust in life, trust in yourself.

If you received this message, thank God for having someone who thinks of you.
Not all of us have that privilege.

Have a beautiful day!

A Day For Remembrance

I was feeling quite sad when I saw Emily's comments about the enlargements of some nodes in her body on my Saturday's post. I met Emily at the Gerson Clinic at Mexico and we keep in touch regularly via email and through my blog.

When we decide to do a therapy, the expectation is that the therapy will help, or at least our condition would not deteriorate. I had my fair share of disappointments throughout last year. Firstly, a new node the size of 3.5cm was discovered in the T6 area in March 2010 and subsequently, another new lymph nodule the size of a marble was discovered on my left collar bone in July 2010. Also, the nodes in my lungs and also the tumor in my right kidney seems to be changing with every CT scan. At one scan, it would grow and then a subsequent scan it would shrink. I am really at a loss what to make of my progress anymore. The bottom line is I have more tumors in my body compared to when I started. I like the term my oncologist used, slow progressing.

I have been reading Bill Henderson's book, Cancer Free, Your Guide to Gentle Non-Toxic Healing to see what recommendations he is giving. His former wife died after a four-year bout with cancer. He then went on a crusade and wrote this book to help out cancer patients. In his book, he recommends cancer patient try his protocol (which also includes five no-noes namely no sugar, no processed food, no animal protein, no dairy and no gluten) for three months and if it didn't work (no guarantee of course), then change to some other protocol. I am beginning to feel a little desperate and restless. Come one more week, I will be in therapy for 19 months, not bad considering I was given six months or less to live. But after 18+ months, the fact is I am still going nowhere. Am I too impatient? Should I give myself more time before I try something else? Or should I continue and slowly waste away?

Some weird things are happening to me. For example, I now have trouble eating steamed or boiled potatoes. Every time I take a bite, it feels so bitter that I want to vomit. I even feel the Hippocrates soup that I drink during my lunch and dinner seems to have gone bad, a sour taste. Have I developed a phobia? I don't know. Occasionally I am also having problems eating my lunch and/or dinner. I feel very hungry but I just can't eat. I tried and at best, I would finish half the portion. Every time, I miss a meal, I lose weight even though I make it up with oats. But on good days when I eat more, I just could not put on the additional weight. I really tried to eat a lot to gain weight but no luck. Miss a meal and I lose weight. I just cannot win.

This year, I also have been experiencing more pain that last year. The pain seems to come more frequently and stay for longer periods. Pain around my left shoulder blade, around my ribs, my back, the area below my right armpit and yesterday, I had continuous pain around the back of my right waist area for the whole day. The blood stained phlegm that I throw out is now an everyday affair. My energy levels is worst off when compared to a year ago. Under such scenario, should I remain conservative in my approach? I am only describing my physical pain. What about the emotional and mental struggle I go through everyday? Now I can understand why some cancer patients wants to die alone. I can see the pain the loves ones go through when watching the patient die is possibly as bad as what the cancer patient goes through.

My brother was the first one to remind me if my Gerson therapy has reached saturation point. He suggested that I look at additional therapies. I have ordered the mediation online and will start the dextrorotatory lactic acid therapy once the medication arrive from Greece and not forgetting the flax seed oil + cottage cheese diet. I hope with these additional therapies, my situation would improve. While it is very easy to look for new therapies, but I am also afraid to start any new therapy because the disappointment from no improvements would hurt a lot more.

Today, is tomb sweeping day, a day of remembrance of the departed. My family performed the rites last Tuesday. Lately, it was reported in the newspaper that the prices of private burial plots have jumped many folds because many people now buy burial plots as an investment and sell when the price is right. This phenomena only happens when you privatise cemeteries. For a Chinese, dying is also a very expensive affair now days. When my turn comes, it will be cremation and my ashes will be scattered at a designated site in Cameron Highlands. No burial.

Painful Sunday

The LDN that I am taking at 11pm is still making me feel quite awake and most of the time I only drift into sleep past midnight. As I result, I also get up later, most days at 9am and at times even 10am. For the past three weeks or so, I am getting not only backache but also a very dry throat and mouth which taste a little bitter. Well, I guess that is a small price to pay for my condition.

Yesterday, my kidney tumor was misbehaving. During the morning enema, I experienced throbbing dull pain on the back of my body. Later in the afternoon, it repeated and when I did my evening enema, the pain oscillated at my right back area.

This morning, I took a pH of my saliva and the reading was 7, not bad. I think I need a more systematic method of measuring my baseline pH reading. The reading can vary if you have brushed the teeth and taken some food. So I will take my reading immediately when I wake up.

EFT Update
I contacted the EFT trainer last Saturday to inquire the next EFT level 1 course. He replied and also invited me to join in his monthly EFT gathering (people who have completed his level 1 and 2 courses) yesterday afternoon so that I can understand EFT better. He also gave a free talk on stress and EFT can do to help managed stress. I took the opportunity to find out more about EFT and later when he learned about my condition, he felt that EFT will be very beneficial for me. He also sensed that I had a lot of problems in my chest area even though I did not tell him about my lungs tumors. He taught me my first EFT tapping session on how to manage my pain on my butt. Did it work? Well, I felt the pain has somewhat subsided.

At the gathering, I also met two of my TCM classmates! Well, later I found out that they have also enrolled in other holistic courses. Being retired, they just wanted to make themselves useful and help people with the knowledge that have learned. Last week in my TCM class, I also met back an ex-colleague of 16 years. He just joined the class. I guess there are many people learning new skills to help themselves and others as well. When you are at the right places, you will meet plenty of such people.

Seek And You Will Find

An anonymous reader said "Your life is in the hands of God". If that's the case, I hope God quickly decides what He wants to do with me. I have been undergoing this therapy for 18 months now and I am really very tired, physically and mentally. So far, I think I am making little headway, though I am happy that my condition did not deteriorate. So I am taking additional therapy in the hope that the other therapies can help. Someone once said I am a results oriented person and I admit I am. I know there are no KRAs or KPIs here to be fulfilled but the results are the most solid form of encouragement that I get.

Sometime back, I attended a Tibetan Buddhist fellowship and one of the participants is a EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) therapist and he has suggested that I look into this area. He said it can help me deal with my emotional issues and I should learn it to help myself. I only managed to get hold of the book, The EFT Manual by Gary Craig yesterday. I am a man of science and I need to read and understand before I can accept any form of therapy. I am only halfway reading the 87 pages book and I am already convinced there is something that I can learn and use to help myself. But that book is the only beginning as there are more to learn.

Why EFT? I like to quote what Gary said on page 15 of his book (with no disrepect to psychotherapists):

"Some people undergo therapy for months or years for relief from their fears, anger, guilt, grief, depression, traumatic memories, etc. and make little or no headway. So they switch therapists in hopes someone else has "the answer." The results are often the same. They switch again...and again...and again. They spend money. They spend time. They go through emotionally painful sessions. But if anything positive happens for most of these people, it doesn't appear to be much.

To me there was something obviously wrong with the methods used because (1) they weren't working (at least by my standards) and (2) they were painfully slow. Also, I don't mean to imply here that no one gets any help or relief from therapy. That just isn't so. Some do. But in general it is among the slowest, most ineffective sciences on earth.

I was told about a psychologist in Southern California, Dr. Roger Callahan, who was giving people relief from intense fears (phobias) in minutes. So, ever the eager beaver, I called him immediately to inquire of his methods. He told me that his methods weren't limited to just phobias. They applied to all negative emotions.

That included depression, guilt, anger, grief, post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and any other negative emotion I could name. Furthermore, the method usually only took minutes to perform and the result was usually permanent."

More information about EFT, please click here.

I was about to engage a psychotherapist sometime this month to help me address some of my negative emotions but after reading Gary Craig's book, I decided to look for a EFT therapist instead. The strangest thing happened yesterday evening when I was attending my TCM class. I was chatting with some students about EFT when one of them told me she is an EFT therapist. Actually, she is more that that. She is also Medical Qi Gong Master plus a host of other holistic qualifications. She has lived in England for over 36 years and now back in Malaysia, she is helping patients in hospitals to overcome the fear of surgery. She immediately offered to help me with EFT. I gladly accepted and thank her profusely, not just because she will not charge me for the sessions, but she has a genuine interest in helping people like me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart Jennie Baker. I was looking for an EFT therapist in the afternoon and by evening I found one in my fellow student. Yes, it was not co-incidental because I was looking for her.

My reasons for learning EFT are for two purposes. The first is to help myself deal with my own negative emotions and I would like to use the knowledge that I learned to help others too. Unlike psychotherapy, EFT can be learned by anyone quite quickly. They say it's very easy! I am now looking forward to the next EFT Level 1 course, to be held on 23 April 2011.

No Running Water

This is going to be a tough day for me. I just found out the there will be no water supply this morning. Late yesterday evening my father noticed that the tap water was running very low and that was an indication that the taps will run dry later on. So before that happened, I quickly filled up whatever water I can so that I can have some water for washing the vegetables and the juicer this morning.

I have been coughing a bit more in the mornings and the evenings. My phlegm are always stained with blood clots. I believe there are some inflammation inside my lungs area. I can feel some pain around my ribs and the area just below my arm pit.

The last week or so, I also noticed I am having backache when I get up in the morning. I am not sure why? I have changed my bed and it is now very firm. Could this be due to the vegetables juices that I have been taking? In TCM, vegetables juices are considered cool (Ying) and can cause backache especially to older people like me. I also noticed that every morning, when I wake up, my mouth is very dry and taste very bitter. I believe I have been breathing through my mouth while I am asleep. This could mean my nose passage is blocked.

A Note About pH Testing
This morning, I also took another pH test of my body and the reading was 5, quite acidic. There is really more work to be done. As I posted on Tuesday, just drinking alkaline water and juicing does not make my body more alkaline because the blood does pH buffering. That's why I have chosen to do the Dextrorotatory Lactic Acid treatment to force the change.

Although the optimum pH of the body is about 7.4, but when we use a pH tester to test the pH of our body through the urine and saliva, the correct range of the pH value should be around 6.4. The pH can move all over the place and the "averaged" pH of both urine and saliva will be right around the 6.4 level (backed by clinical work with the research of Reams, Vincent, Revici and others) - and this would be at just about any time of day when tested - though the best times to track and test for a baseline reading would be two hours after a meal. The reason 6.4 seems to be ideal is for specific ionization principles to be carried out in the body. The average pH is derived from this formula:
(Urine pH ____ + (Saliva pH X 2 ___ ) ) / Divided by 3 = ____.

Ideally a pH of say around 5.8 would be very good for urine (shows the body can get rid of metabolic acids), and 6.8 would be very good for saliva.

IMPORTANT: pH issues and what you do about them must ALWAYS be seen in the light of a person's breath rate and breath hold time. The lungs are initiated to regulate pH on a moment to moment basis. A normal average breath rate is 16 breaths per minute. If a person for instance has a resting breath rate of 9 breaths per minute, that individual has a potential alkalosis issue.

Correcting Your pH

Average pH Between 6 and 7
Some practitioners suggest that if your average pH is between 6 and 7, you can just use the neutral calciums of gluconate and orotate to build up your total alkalinity along with other minerals and trace minerals.

Average pH Above 7
If your pH is above 7, it is possible that vitamin C (ascorbic acid) can be useful. Clinicians have found about 1000mg twice a day of C is good, and the higher above pH 7 you go (especially if this is the urine #), the more vitamin C you can take.

Vitamin D is contraindicated.

NOTE: You should note that it is entirely possible to be too alkaline. Many go around and say alkalize, alkalize, alkalize, but they fail to point out that there is a flip side to everything. Being too alkaline presents its own set of clinical manifestations and needs to be equally addressed.

Average pH Below 6
If your pH is below 6, some clinicians will add calcium citrate or calcium carbonate (something like coral calcium is the carbonate form). With pH 5.6 to 6 clinicians have found that adding 1000 IU of vitamin D once or twice a day is beneficial and pH from 5.2 to 5.6 up to 5000 IU of vitamin D is good, while pH below 5.0 up to 50000 IU of vitamin D once or twice a day would be ok as little vitamin D is being absorbed in the acid terrain. It is possible to use vitamin D to help push the pH up. Stop the calcium citrate and carbonate when you come into pH range 6 to 7. Pull back on vitamin D and go to cod liver oil for vitamin D requirements. Do not take vitamin C.

My Choices

Space, the final frontier. Beautiful isn't it? One of my other passion is astronomy.

The irony for me is that despite being on alternative therapy, I am still as lost on the selections available, though not as bad as in the beginning. Yesterday afternoon, I was having lunch with my brother and sisters, they confessed that if they had cancer, they are not sure what treatment they would take. This is because they have been brainwashed all these years on conventional medication and selecting alternative treatment is not an easy decision.

In my current quest for an adjunct therapy and in my research on the various alternatives that can complement Gerson therapy, I also found so many complementary therapies. Every major one that I stumbled upon seems a good choice. Some even said Gerson therapy is a past therapy. Anyway I must admit, what I posted is biased towards to my own case because I am trying to treat myself and not somebody else.

I think many now knows that treating cancer is a costly affair and can run into hundreds of thousands depending on the therapy chosen. It' s a fallacy to think alternative therapy is the "cheaper" version. Depending on the alternative therapy chosen, it can be quite cheap (when compared to conventional medicine) but do not forget, alternative therapy normally takes more time to see results. Those on organic food have realised that the prices of food costs at least three times more expensive than normal food. In Malaysia, most organic foods are imported and the costs of these foods can take a heavy toll on the wallet. Some of my friends said, there is no harm is trying this or that alternative therapy. I told him, I don't agree. Why? Because my cash resources are limited. If I spent the money on A therapy, then I cannot do B therapy. When I spoke to the censium chloride consultant, the first thing he told me is the recommendation he gives will depend on how much I can afford. Straight to the point. He knows because he spoke to probably thousands of patients. So, the bottom line is that one must select the therapy that he or she thinks will be the best and within his or her budget.

But unfortunately, there are no reports that rate and compare these alternative therapies. At the same time I know each therapy out there has its own successes and followers. When I first started Gerson therapy, it was by chance that I saw it first. However, if I had seen something else like the Budwig or Bill Hendeson's therapy, I could have chosen them over Gerson just because I saw it first. This is because I NEVER once bothered to read of any such alternatives in my pre-cancer days, so I don't know what kind of alternatives are available out there. When I got cancer, after three weeks has passed and I was still without any therapy, I became desperate. Sure, my friends emailed and recommended this or that but after reading, I was not convinced it was for me.

Now, 18 months later on, I am still not sure of the next adjunct therapy that I should take. However, those that I mentioned in my blog are considered shortlisted by me. I must acknowledge some friends helped in pointing out some of the therapies. This is not to say the other alternatives not mentioned are not good. For example, two of them that deserves special mention are IV vitamin C and vitamin B17. For vitamin B17, the Gerson Clinic in Mexico said it is not effective on kidney cancer. I believe each person would need to research on his or her own case and by instincts would get a feel that this therapy is right for him or her.

This may sound like experimentation. Sure, I think all alternative therapies are experimentation because each cancer patient is different.

Well, I think the adjunct therapies that I think I will do are:
1. Dextrorotatory Lactic Acid (using Pleo-SANUVIS* Drops 100ml/ Acidum L(+)-lacticum)
2. Budwig flax seed + cottage seed diet and possibly
3. Sodium bicarbonate bath

Backup Therapy:
1. Censium chloride

Note: * This drops can be obtained from your homeopathy practitioner. Unfortunate for me, my practitioner does not have stock, so I have to import from Greece.

Wish me luck.

What Causes Cancer? - Part 5

It has been clinically demonstrated that the spread or metastasis of cancer is inversely proportional to the amount of oxygen around the cancer cells. The more oxygen, the slower the cancer spreads. The less oxygen, the faster the cancer spreads. If cancer cells get enough oxygen, they will die (cancer cells are anaerobic). It is thought that hydrogen peroxide (H2O2) kills cancer cells because cancer cells do not have the mechanism to break down hydrogen peroxide that healthy cells have.

An expert, Dr. David G. Williams, has extensively researched this issue and considers the internal injestion of H2O2 to be perfectly safe. He notes:
"A single atom of oxygen, however, is very reactive and is referred to as a free radical. Over the past several years, we've continually read that these free radicals are responsible for all types of ailments and even premature aging. What many writers seem to forget, however, is that our bodies create and use free radicals to destroy harmful bacteria, viruses, and fungi.

In fact, the cells responsible for fighting infection and foreign invaders in the body (your white blood cells) make H2O2 and use it to oxidize any offending culprits. The intense bubbling you see when H2O2 comes in contact with a bacteria-laden cut or wound is the oxygen being released and bacteria being destroyed. The ability of our cells to produce H2O2 is essential for life. H202 is not some undesirable by-product or toxin, but instead a basic requirement for good health."

This will be the last of the therapy that I will share under this series.

Peroxide Therapy
Due to its characteristics H2O2 Therapy is sometimes used as a treatment for cancer. The ACS (American Cancer Society) had stated that there is no question of doubt that hydrogen peroxide therapy is safe and effective treatment against cancer. It is suggested that this treatment should be taken under proper guidance of qualified doctors.

Hydrogen Peroxide, also known as H2O2 (its chemical formula), is a very simple compound. Here it has got an extra atom of oxygen attached, which is found throughout in the nature and in almost all the cells in the human body. H2O2 is naturally found in mother’s milk, especially in the first milk secreted right after the birth. It is known as colostrum with high concentration of H2O2 naturally in it.

Dr. Charles Farr revealed that intravenous H2O2 stimulates oxidative enzymes in the body, which help in clearing out of the toxins. He invented that intravenous H2O2 infusions almost doubled the metabolic rate. These changes may account in part for the observed benefits from H2O2 infusions.

Controlling cancer can be done by controlling the oxygen and/or controlling the things that free up oxygen (e.g. ionized water) and other ways. H2O2, or other oxygen therapies, are one of the most widely used cancer therapies world-wide because they provide oxygen to the cancer cells. They are safe and effective. H2O2 is also used for a host of other ailments, including AIDS and any other virus based illness.

Treatment Dosages
The doses of 35% H2O2 to be taken (three times a day) can be one drop, four drops, or ten drops. One author even recommends 25 drops, three times a day.

In converting 35% dosages to 3% dosages, multiply by 10 (not 11). For example:
1) One drop of 35% H2O2 becomes 10 drops of 3% H2O2,
2) Four drops of 35% H2O2 becomes 40 drops of 3% H2O2 (about half a Teaspoon),
3) Ten drops of 35% H2O2 becomes 100 drops of 3% H2O2 (a little more than one Teaspoon),
4) Twenty-Five drops of 35% H2O2 becomes 250 drops (a little less than 3 Teaspoons)

Do not forget to build-up to ALL doses by no more than 5 drops a day (using 3% H2O2 doses), but only 2 drops a day at the beginning. In emergencies, where time is critical you can try to increase the dose any way you can. If you start to have significant stomach problems (a small amount of nausea is to be expected), discontinue the treatment or build up more slowly.

For bath use at home, some individuals add a cup of 35% food grade hydrogen peroxide [or 10 cups of 3%] to a bathtub of warm water and soak for 20 to 30 minutes as the hydrogen peroxide is absorbed through the skin.

WARNING: Hydrogen peroxide that is taken orally must ALWAYS be mixed with at least 4 ounces of distilled water, even AFTER it is diluted into 3% hydrogen peroxide - in order to protect the stomach.

THREE-HOUR WINDOW WARNING
H2O2 can chemically react with certain other substances. This chemical reaction creates a very toxic substance which can severely damage the stomach.

To avoid this chemical reaction, there is a "Three Hour Window" every time you take H2O2, where you should not consume certain substances. This "three hour window" does not apply to H2O2 baths because it only applies to what goes on inside the stomach.

For two hours BEFORE taking hydrogen peroxide orally (with water) and for one hour AFTER taking H2O2, the foods in this section should be avoided!! This is a "three hour window" where you should not take these substances!!

1) All forms of vitamin C should be avoided. This especially applies to ascorbate forms, but all forms eventually turn into ascorbates, thus no form of Vitamin C should be used inside the "three hour window." This includes avoiding multi-vitamins which contain vitamin C, ascorbic acid, mineral ascorbates (e.g. sodium ascorbate, potassium carbonate, etc.).
2) Fatty acids, such as the Budwig Diet, fish oils, fatty foods, etc. should also be avoided during the "three hour window." In other words, all forms of fat in foods are forbidden within the window.
3) Any food with iron in it or any supplement with iron in it, is forbidden within the window.
It is advisable not to take any food during this three hour window.

Notes:
1. ONLY use 35% hydrogen peroxide of "Food Grade" quality. Only [highly diluted] 35% Food Grade hydrogen peroxide is recommended for internal use. At this concentration [i.e. 35%], however, hydrogen peroxide is a very strong oxidizer and if not diluted, it can be extremely dangerous or even fatal. Any concentrations over 10% can cause neurological reactions and damage to the upper gastrointestinal tract. The 3% hydrogen peroxide (i.e. pharmaceutical grade) that you purchase at the local pharmacies are NOT suitable to be taken internally.
2. Avoid the Budwig Diet when using hydrogen peroxide!! When the fats in the Budwig Diet interact with the hydrogen peroxide it can cause severe stomach damage.
3. Remember, ZERO Vitamin C (even in multi-vitamins), ZERO iron supplements, ZERO fats, dilute H2O2 heavily with water and always take on an empty stomach.
4. This cancer protocol is very effective at getting rid of cancer cells, however, this protocol does not contain the super-nutrients which deal with reversing damage to the non-cancerous cells due to cancer (e.g. lactic acid), etc. Nor is this treatment very strong at rebuilding the immune system, which is necessary for long-term survival. This protocol should be treated as a supplemental protocol to the more complete protocols.