I would like to thank those of you who have written to encourage me. The truth is that I took up this job with the sole aim of helping Chang complete his story. I have not made any plans yet for this blog. Though I have always enjoyed writing, his shoes may be a bit too big for me to fill.
I have to admit that it was not an easy job he entrusted onto me. During the last few weeks of his life, I followed his physical progress as closely as I could in order to update this blog. And I watched the dying process taking place day by day. The physical changes, the deterioration and the suffering. Watching life unfold, having to process it in my mind and coming home to write about it. The hardest day was on the day he passed on.
At the end of life, what really matters to you? Is it the money, the job title or career achievements? Would you panic then whilst on your death bed and wish that you had more time to live life differently? Have you been true to yourself, lived up to your beliefs and at least tried to live out your dreams?
Or is life just one day of struggle after another? Work, work and work. A life so full of responsibilities and obligations that we have forgotten what really matters, our heart? What have we done with our lives and the limited time we have on earth to benefit others? Because at the end of the day, nothing really counts but the way we have treated other people.
These were also some of the questions I posed to Chang then, in 2010, not out of judgment but because I felt these were useful questions to reflect on. He said then that he would try to live differently with the extended time he had. I also encouraged him to live out any unfulfilled dreams, as did many of his friends. Contrary to what many people may think, I believe the process of dying a good death starts now when we are healthy. And, I believe that when Chang passed on, he left with greater awareness and a richer view of life.
Let us also live in awareness every moment of everyday..
(Updated by Chang's Friend)