I just got results of my blood test and the overall results has deteriorated. I have expected some deterioration because of the cyclophosphamide drug that I am taking for over a month now. I will be writing to my doctor in New York for some advice to see if I should continue or take a break from taking cyclophosphamide. I suppose my IV vitamin c + B12 therapy which I just started taking about two weeks ago should help me recover. I just need to have faith in what I have chosen to do.
Taking a cocktail of drugs/therapies for my cancer treatment is not easy. This is because everything that I am experiencing are new. Individually each drug/therapies have its own merits and strength. When combined together, theoretically there should be synergy but I can't predict what the fireworks will be. At the same time it's exciting because I have chosen to take a different approach rather than surrendering. Sometimes, I also wonder weather such effort are worth it or not? Am I gambling with my life? What is there to gamble when my condition is already beyond hope, at least from from the conventional point of view. But then, I do not subscribe to "try this or that... what have you got to lose?" strategy. A cancer patient's money and time to live are limited. If I were to try, then at least I would try those that I think would offer me some hope. A lot of damaged are done to a cancer patient's hope when a therapy fails.