Do I Know Where I am Going To?

I am beginning to be afraid of the night. No, I am not afraid of the ghosts. I am frightened of the night because I cannot sleep. The nights seems forever as I sit helplessly to wait for morning to break. Should I read a book, surf the net or just watch TV?  It's been more than a month since I have not been sleeping well. I have researched and tried some of the sleeping methods but so far only the sleeping pills works very well. Melatonin supplements seems elusive for the moment and I will pay a visit to my doctor for some prescription. I seems to be losing grips with my life. How am I going to heal when I am not sleeping? It looks like I am beginning to experience more problems on top of what I already have. What am I going to do?

If you think I am sounding desperate, I am. It happened before and will continue to happen. I am not afraid to die but how I die. Many a times, I just  hope I would not to wake up from my sleep. Just taking the easy way out. But wait, I am not giving up! I am releasing some frustrations once in a while but by no means I act destructively. Sometimes I sink into short depression periods. The pain from the cancer are wrecking havoc on my life and confidence.

Vitamin C
I finally did it. I have read about it, thought about it for months now and I finally had my IV Vitamin C (IVC) yesterday. How does it feel? Not much except I have this flu like symptoms. Could not mount a fever so it became uncomfortable. Had a hot bath, drank hot drink to sweat. Did not work and finally took a pain killer. I had a good sleep last night. Apparently, it could because of the IVC.

Dr. Hugh Riordan, a scientist, routinely checked plasma vitamin C levels in chronically ill patients. He found these sick patients to be consistently low in their plasma C levels. Interestingly enough, the cancer patients he was seeing had VERY LOW vitamin C reserves. This matched scientific literature documenting low vitamin C levels in cancer patients. Cancer cells were actively taking up vitamin C in a way that depleted tissue reserves of C.

PET scans are commonly ordered by oncologists to evaluate their cancer patients for metastases (cancer spread to other organs). What is actually injected into the patient at the start of the scan is radioactive glucose. Cancer cells are anaerobic obligates, which means they depend upon glucose as their primary source of metabolic fuel. Cancer cells employ transport mechanisms called glucose transporters to actively pull in glucose.

In the vast majority of animals, vitamin C is synthesized from glucose in only four metabolic steps. Hence, the molecular shape of vitamin C is remarkably similar to glucose. Cancer cells will actively transport vitamin C into themselves, possibly because they mistake it for glucose. Another plausible explanation is that they are using the vitamin C as an antioxidant. Regardless, the vitamin C accumulates in cancer cells.

If large amounts of vitamin C are presented to cancer cells, large amounts will be absorbed. In these unusually large concentrations, the antioxidant vitamin C will start behaving as a pro-oxidant as it interacts with intracellular copper and iron. This chemical interaction produces small amounts of hydrogen peroxide.

Because cancer cells are relatively low in an intracellular anti-oxidant enzyme called catalase, the high dose vitamin C induction of peroxide will continue to build up until it eventually lyses the cancer cell from the inside out! This effectively makes high dose IVC a non-toxic chemotherapeutic agent that can be given in conjunction with conventional cancer treatments. Based on the work of several vitamin C pioneers before him, Dr. Riordan was able to prove that vitamin C was selectively toxic to cancer cells if given intravenously. This research was recently reproduced and published by Dr. Mark Levine at the National Institutes of Health.