Moderate Expectations

I have been on two coffee enemas for the last three days and my body is telling me that I need to go back up to three again. By late afternoon, I feel a little dull and the night enema is also difficult to do. I will revisit after my first anniversary on 11 September. My body also feels a little warmer these few days. Everything else looks and feels normal. During the last few days when I was doing the coffee enema, I experienced a slight pulsating pain around my right abdomen area lasting for a few seconds. This is the first time I experienced it since I started doing coffee enema over 10 months ago. Nothing to worry, I think it is a good reaction.

As I approach year 2 of my therapy, I am rereading the materials to see what changes I can or should make to my diet and therapy. Should I continue with the strict regime since I started? Actually, I can enjoy more variety of foods now but I have not. It's still too early now to decide because what I can do will depend on the outcome of the scan.

For now, the diet that I am on is not that bad but of course, it can be improved. Improved it will but only after the results are out. Of course I am expecting some positive developments (if the signals from my body did not betray me and the tumors did not operate in super stealth mode).

Getting Better

Yesterday was a tiring day for me. Despite the afternoon nap, I was still not in the "mood". By late afternoon, I was developing early symptoms of flu and was sneezing unusually more. The back was aching, not sure if it from Sunday's massage or from the flu that is developing. By early evening, my body temperature started to increase slightly and after dinner I quickly prepare to take my night enema. However, just before I started the enema, the flu like symptoms started to subside a bit and I was feeling a little cold.

This morning, I woke up feeling better but noticed that my body temperature is still a little high. The qigong exercises was good and I felt much better after the exercises. I have developed one mouth ulcer but everything else looks normal. The chest area appears quite, whatever that has been brewing yesterday seems to have stopped. Breathing is normal and no coughing. I believe I would be more energetic when I complete the morning enema and as the day progresses. Cheer up, it's a lovely day!

The sound quality from the Philips Music Cube that I bought on Sunday is actually quite good. Despite the smallness of the speaker powered by a 3.5" woofer, the clarity of the sound is good and is biased towards the bass and drums, i.e. lower tones. The bass and drums sound very deep and full, though I would prefer some balance at higher tones.

Testing Of Confidence

I was a little busy this morning having to goto my daughter's school to collect her report card. Now that's done, I am trying to catch up my daily schedule. The last few days, I have been waking up at least four times a night (yesterday was six times) for my night urine. My last urine before I go to bed is 11pm. I finish my last juicing of the day at about 6.30pm, so I do not expect to have so much night urine but it has increased compared to previously. The only additional thing I eat together with my oatmeal supper is an apple. I am going to make a change from today onwards and observe if the situation improves. I will take my apple during dinner time together with other fruits.

I am still coughing now and then (not continuous basis) in the mornings and noticed there are still blood clots in my phlegm. Situation is under control and no signs of any adverse deterioration in the body. Things are good and I am having a good time. As reported previously, I need to improve on my sleep (one nap in the afternoon may not be enough).

The Show Must Go On

My attention is now focused on exercising the shoulder blade area. Although the pain arising from the area due to sleep is improving, there are still some exercises I must do to help ease the problem. The blood clots in my phlegm is still there especially if I have a very hard cough. Blood clots are signs that the wounds are healing. Like in the hand, after a cut, the blood clots to allow the cut area to heal and overtime, the clotted blood drops off. However, when it happens in the lungs area, that area is moist and the normal way is to expell it through coughs. So long as there are no fresh blood, I believe things are under control.

There are not much happening these days. I am still busy as ever, doing marketing, making the soup, jucicing and performing coffee enemas. Boring as it may be, the show must go on. I have to constantly remind myself not to slack and continue to focus on the therapy. With my improving condition, it is much easier to do nowdays.

Body Changes

I observed that there have been some changes to my body. For example, I have been having mouth ulcers ever since I started this therapy but for the last two weeks, I am not only free of mouth ulcers, the last time the mouth ulcers that wanted to develop just did not materialise. I have also been more tolerant to cold water now and can now bath in cold water. Previously I would shiver. My body which feels a little warm, sort of like slight feverish has also seen a drop in temperature, its still warm but not as much as before.

Yesterday I not only managed to complete my errands, I was able to meet many of my ex-colleagues and have lunch with them as well. I am happy to note a number of them have been keeping fit. One of them said I look young and yet old at the same time. Another said I look young from far but old from near. I think the explanation is that my skin really looks young (this diet is fantastic, better than any beauty spa or cream on the market to make you look younger) but I also have wrinkles around my forehead due to aging and also from weight loss.

Day 274 And Growing Stronger

Due to the visit by the surprise visitor, a silky terrier, much of my time this morning has been taken to clean the dog.

Anyway, today marks the beginning of the 10 month of my therapy. The last three months have been eventful, particularly for the March, April and first half of May 2010. My first six months of the therapy has been relative pain free and mostly problem free. However when I moved into the March month, I began to experience pain. Although the pain did not come from itself, every movement of my body caused it to pain, even the slightly movement like lifting the hand and even sleeping down. For two and a half month from March to mid May 2010, this was the case. This was a testing time for me because I had to handle so much negative thoughts during this period. I told myself that there must be some pain in the healing period before the body could get better. How do I know? I started searching the Internet for other people's blog and through their experience, I know I am on the right path. Some of the healing reactions include fevers, stomach gases, coughing of blood clots and abdominal pains.

As mysteriously the pain came, it went away and sometime in the mid of May the pain began to subside. The body begins to feel better followed by a slight increase in weight. Doing normal work did not cause me to breath frantically as before and in fact I had more energy. The stomach gases problem lingered a little longer until the about the last week of May and then slowly subsided. The only problem that was present from the start was the mouth ulcers.

I am now into the second half of the 2nd phase of the therapy. While the 1st phase is for stabilising the tumors, the 2nd phase involves the shrinking of the tumors. So far body indications are good and the next three months to Setpember will be focussing on this aspects of the therapy. Come September 2010, I will do another CT scan to access the actual situation. After that we will be moving to the 3rd phase of the therapy, root elemination.

Body Undergoing Changes?

I think my body is now undergoing some phases of development. I am not sure if the phases are good or not. I think this is what is happening. About 6 weeks ago, I was hit by the stomach gases problem. Although for the past week the stomach gases problems has sort of subsided, I noticed that my body is now plagued with pain around the rib cage area. It started with pain around the back, then travelled to the sides and now is at the front side especially on the lower right rib side where the pain is felt most. Coughing will of course be painful as with stretching the body. So to avoid pain, don't cough nor stretch the body. Leave it at a relaxed mode.

My qigong exercises has sort of enhanced the pain a little but everytime I finised the qigong, I feel a little better. However, towards the evening the soreness around my tights is felt due to the exercises. I am not sure if the rib cage area are affected or not. Still I think the qigong exercises are beneficial. Ever since I reinstalled the Windowx XP for my tablet notebook, I have been surfing and doing some work on the notebook. Because I do most of the work on the bed, I think my poisture has also contributed to the pain. So what I did was to setup another old PC in the kitchen where I do most of my work now.

Pain or not, I try not to let these distract my therapy and so far I have been handling it quite good. Yesterday my regular Chinese medical hall supplier said I look thin but my completion is good. She wondered if I am on diet or what. I told her about my cancer and the therapy I am doing. She encouraged me to continue. It feels great to be alive even with so much problems inside me!

Longer Healing Reactions

Having strong stomach gases and feeling nauseatic are part of the healing reaction. However, the documentation says one should experience it for five or six days but in my case, it is now in its third week. Is this a little unusual? So I began to search for some answers in the Net. I found out from a clinic that practices Gerson Therapy that it is not right to take any form of medication to suppress the gases. If the gases are suppressed, then the healing stop. OK, I will take say peppermint tea to help deal with the situation. I also found out that as the body becomes stronger, the healing reaction lasts longer. One way to deal with the situation is perhaps to increase back my enemas from three times to four times, taking the night enema at 10pm instead of 8.30pm currently done. In one blog written by a lady from Italy who had breast cancer, she even did a plain water enema at night to help release the toxins and she felt less nauseatic in the morning.

At this moment, I am actually feeling quite good, not withstanding the strong stomach gases. The pain in the back from stretching the body is not getting worst, in fact I think it's getting better. Unlike most people, I am a little susceptible to negative body reactions such as pain and the like. As a result, I have to constantly remind myself of no pain, no gain. Sometimes the pain has nothing to do with the tumors but a body reaction. Well who said doing home therapy would be easy especially if you are doing without guidance? Well, that answer to that question was why I wrote this blog in the first place.

Gases In Stomach

My coughing has improved and I am not coughing so much even when lying down. It should get better in the coming days. However, my stomach still has a lot of gases and causing some stomach indigestion. Although I do drink a lot of carrot juices a day, this has not caused me any problems earlier but only happened in the last three weeks. Unfortunately I am unable to take turmeric or ginger to relief the stomach of gases. The other way is probably through stomach massage. I am now free of any mouth or tongue ulcers but I am wondering how long before another ulcer pops up?

Getting up at 6am, preparing juices and then go for qigong 5 times a week is tiring. In my quest to get more rests, I have possibly developed a very bad habit, sleeping immediately after lunch. Perhaps this could also be one of the causes of my indigestion. The timing is suitable and does not interfere with the juicing and detoxing time. One side effect is already noticeable, I have developed a small tummy. Maybe I should do a review.

It's been more than two weeks since I started learning Chilel qigong. As I become more familiar with the exercises, I am joining back the main group instead of being individually taught by the Lao-shi. Today there is a new student and the Lao-shi was busily instructing him. It's still too early to tell if this qigong will have an impact on the healing but any form of exercise is beneficial, one way or the other.

Feeling Nauseatic

My left shoulder blade and back problem is very much better now, almost no pain even when after getting up. However, when stretching the back, there is still some pain. There are still itchiness in my hands and feet. The best way to overcome it is by ignoring it because the more you massage or scratch it, the more itchy it becomes.

Last two days, I had some nausea. This came about on Wednesday morning when I was practicing my qigong. My Lao-Shi (teacher) says that it is normal to experience such phonomena when doing this qigong as the chi (energy) is flowing through the various parts of the body. Coupled with the tongue ulcer, it made things worst as eating is now much more difficult. I almost did not feel like eating. From Gerson Therpy's prespective, this could also be a healing reaction.

Flare Ups

I have been on the Gerson Therapy (GT) for over four months now and so far so good. In my opinion, I think the potassium and iodine (ie. lugol solution) are two of the more important supplments that GT followers take. Previously I use kelp as substitute for the iodine because that was the best I could get.

However, with my brother's help I managed to get lugol solution as recommended in the GT. It's only 5 days into using the lugol solution when I experienced the full flare-up since yesterday. For most patients, the flare-up occurs within the first two weeks of treatment. I had nausea and lots of gases in my stomach yesterday but today I had problem eating dinner. I felt like vomitting everytime I take a bite at the potatoes and stewed vegetables. I just don't feel like eating. There was also a lot of gas in my stomach too. However, I had little problem eating raw fruits but then these are not filling. So I made myself some otas but this was also difficult to eat, basically I felt like vomitting. Anyhow, I push myself to eat as much as possible. I still feel hungry but have no mood to eat! Luckily I had no problems (yet) with the coffee enema and it helps a bit everytime I completed my enemas.

The recommended treatment is to take large amount (2 liters) of peppermint tea, served with brown sugar and a bit of lemon for 24 hours. Such flare ups are expected to last not more than 4 days. It will occur again in the future though. Patients are recommended to remain in bed but I do not have this luxury as I need to do the juicing myself. Sigh...

Clinically, these flare ups are favourable reactions and should be regarded as part of the healing process.

A New Beginning

In the beginning...
When I first started the blog, the title I have used is the date of the day. This is because after I got news from my allopathic doctors (seen two urologists), I was given as no hope except for miracle to happen. Even when I asked one of the doctor how much time I had left, he kept quiet. So I gave myself 6 months to a year. I was thinking I may not be able to blog for long and maybe bed ridden and hence counting my days. That was the past and now all that has changed. I am feeling much better and stronger as each days passes. This is a new beginning for me.

Update
This morning, I had a reaction. First I felt a hotness around my face (the sensation is similar to when you cut chili and accidentally touch you face before washing your hands) and then it traveled to my shoulders, arms and subsequently thighs. The sensation was on for about 10 minutes and then it disappeared. Actually I felt the hotness in my face yesterday night but I did not pay much attention. My homeopathy practitioner says it is a good reaction.

I met the urologist at Pantai Hospital this morning. He feels that the kidney operations would not benefit me much and in fact would severely weakened my body. It is highly unlikely to be able to do the keyhole surgery and most probably will be the full blown operation. I will be bed ridden for at least two weeks and full recovery may take more than 4 months. Previously he has been quite aggressive by recommending his patients with similar problem as mine to operate but most of them died within 6 months of surgery. The quality of life deteriorates and most lose their appetite and died within a month after that. He changed his strategy a bit and will now operate only if the patient takes the experimental drug therapy Sutent. So far he has two patients on the therapy but both are not responding and now waiting for time only. He recommend that I do not take any surgery for the moment. I fully agree.

There is something I want to share with you. In Sun Tzu's Art of War, he says "Put the army in the face of death where there is no escape, they will not flee or be afraid - there is nothing they cannot achieve". According to analysts, this was proven during Sun Tzu's war with the Chu state (his soldiers were outnumbered by 1:10) and again used in the Second World War in the D Day where the American soldiers were put in a situation there they have no escape but to fight in the Battle of Normandy. That was the turning point of the war. Perhaps that's why when cancer patients are told they have no hope, many survived. This is our miracle cure. It starts with us.

Additional Therapies

Now that my main therapies are all in placed, I need to see what further things I can do to improve my situation further. I was watching the Horizon documentary Everest Doctors in the Death Zone. The doctors found that the all critical illness patients in intensive care die due to lack of oxygen in their blood, a condition which the doctors call hypoxia. Cancer patients are also in this group. That documentary, the intensive care specialist decided to find the answers to hypoxia by putting their own bodies and subject it to low levels of oxygen by carrying out a series of experiments at Camp 4 of Everest. Cancer grows in an anaerobic environment but will die if there is sufficient oxygen. Besides my morning walk and breathing exercise, I need to have more systematic and effective way of boosting oxygen levels in my blood.

Qigong
There are two exercises I am now considering. The first is Qigong, a powerful system of self healing energy. I am now looking for some master to learn from then so that I can practice every morning.

Cosmic Energy
The other is something new to me but was introduced to me by my ex-colleague, Kian Beng and is wife JC. I will write more on this once I have more information.

Highlands
I am thinking of spending two weeks or so in Cameron as higher altitude have negative ions and the weather are good for me. I have to check if they have supply of organic vegetables or not. But doing coffee enema will be a challenge, especially at night because of the cold weather.