Choppy Seas Ahead?

The last week or so, my back has been killing me. This pain appears from below the shoulder blade area to the waist and only happens early in the morning. So by 4-5am, the pain would wake me up. I thought it was only the softness of my bed but I did put in a plank to support my back. The result is still the same. Could this pain be from the tumor at the T6 area? Yesterday night, I slept on a firmer natural rubber mattress. What is the result? The back pain has reduced somewhat 90%.

The compression around my chest area also did not subside. There pressure seems to be building up inside and light pain can be felt around the both rib areas, although it is not causing me any breathing problems. But when I lie down to sleep, my heartbeat becomes irregular. I feel that something bad is going to happen in the future. Meanwhile, I will take more oxygen therapy throughout the day to see if my condition improves or not.

Still no sign of my shipment from Greece. I am not sure if the local customs will impound the shipment. Keeping my fingers crossed. If that happens, I will have to either use the local source or think of other ways to secure the next shipment, maybe via Singapore. I am keen to rebalance my pH. Yesterday I managed to make my first cottage cheese from organic skim milk. I must admit, it is really simple to make cottage cheese but I made a mistake when heating the milk. I forgot that the temperature was 120°F (or just under 49°C). Instead I thought it was 120°C and only realised when the temperature reached 70°C. Other than that, the whole process was expected. I used about 2 liters of milk (from 140g of milk powder) and 3/8 cup of apple cider vinegar. The result is about 1/2 a cup of cottage cheese. Good enough for me to start.

Recently, a reader by the name of Justin sent me a link about a venerable monk, Kittiyano Bhikkhu in Thailand doing the Gerson therapy in 2007. I have also been interested in how other people are doing Gerson therapy on their own (or with the assistance of their local professional). The book is an easy read and well documented. I am amazed that a venerable monk would go through the coffee enema and take pictures of himself in the process. Of course, I noted there are some differences in his protocol when compared to the protocol that I am doing. Not just the supplements but the very diet itself. I also sensed that the venerable monk was very diligent in doing the therapy (as can be seen from his physical appearance in the photographs). I am also particularly impressed with the cooking style that he adopted. When I look back at my present regime, I also realised that I have settled down to a boring routine and also not as diligent when compared to when I first started. I was not as creative as the venerable in preparing the food. Despite my strict adherence to the protocol, my results is pale in comparison with that of the venerable monk. He saw results within 3 months (80% reduction of cancer) and as for me, after 19+ months, I don't even know if I will live two months down the road.

That's why I like to read other people's story, it gives me a sense of hope but at the same time, I am also disappointed with my own progress, but I am not discouraged. Have I been successful? No, the bulk of my tumors are still there. So I must have failed? No, I did not die either. As far as Gerson therapy is concerned, I don't know what more I can do? I am looking for additional potent therapies that I can do. As I said towards the end of last year, 2011 will be a very difficult year for me. Someone once said to me that I look desperate trying this or that. I admit, she is right. All these self complaining will not help me. I will try some of the venerable's food preparation, a radical departure from my daily food routine. Thank you Justin for the link. Anyway, the show must go on.

Organotherapy
One therapy that I learned from Kittiyano Bhikkhu's book Close to Nature is organo therapy. I did some Google searches and most of the sites listed are in German. From what little I learned so far, I am intrigued with what I found out.

Organotherapy is the branch of Homeopathy that makes remedies from healthy tissues from animals raised and harvested in a carefully controlled environment. The use of these remedies is based on the idea that organs respond to like tissues, no matter what species their origin, as long as there is similarity. This has been demonstrated experimentally as well. Every living organ is capable of recognizing its own signature and responding. This is a tissue memory, and it stimulates the exact reproduction of the cells of the tissue.

I think I will research more about this complimentary treatment and consult my local homeopathy practitioner for more information.