It's Not What It Seems

In my pre cancer days when I was working in the gym, my instructor would always remind me, no pain no gain. But in cancer, no pain is gain. Pain is the payoff in cancer. You get it everyday. I have accepted it but that does not mean I have to be constricted by it. Negative thinking generates pain, among others. I catch all the negative thoughts if possible and deal with it. Dealing with it is not suppressing it. I reflect on it and 'talk' to myself about it. I acknowledge my feelings, release my feelings and then I move on. All this is possible because I am the decision maker. I decide how I want to feel and react. The cancer or the external stimuli is not going to decide for me. I will not allow that. I will not give up my right to decide. So it's therefore possible to experience what you want. You think of positive things, it creates abundance. If you focus on the negative things, you create scarcity. It may sound simple but we tend to forget and instead keep focusing on the negatives, especially so when you have cancer. That's how I managed to keep my positive outlook since the day I discovered my cancer. Not even the prediction of six months life left for me by my doctors could decide for me. I decided that I will do something different.

I managed to meet my friend late afternoon yesterday. And I was surprised to see that his wife's condition has improved so much after just 3 weeks of Hyperthermia therapy (HT) in Germany. When I met her in February 2012 during the Vitamin C IV, she was looking pale and frail. I am very happy that the therapy has managed to improve her condition in such a short time. Although I have read so much about the HT, I only know about the technical points but nothing beats the real experience of a patient. They can tell you things that are not written in the books. They also shared with some ideas which I can use when I decide to go Germany for the treatment. Practical ideas for which I appreciate it very much. Instead of going for a full therapy, I will most likely go for a la carte full hyperthermia and detox therapy and combined with another therapy called dendritic cells therapy at two different clinics in Germany. Also most patients at the clinic in Germany are returning patients, one coming back for the 5th time. My friend told me that a patient needs to have multiple sessions of HT. His wife's first HT session costs around RM70K (US$23K) all in. His wife is going back to Germany this weekend for a second round session. She will be taking only the core therapies, so the costs will come down. This multiple sessions of HT was something I have not thought of before.

I have a strong threshold for pain, so I tend to be able to bear with pain and my own view is that if possible, I will not take any pain killer even when in pain. This is because there are side effects of taking pain killers such as stomach pain, internal bleeding and ulcers. In yesterday's meeting with my friend, I also learned something. I learned another view about pain. While in Germany, the doctor recommend the patient to take pain killer. Why? The doctor said the cancer patient should not waste his or her energy to fight pain. Instead that energy should be used for healing. Why didn't I think of that? It makes quite a lot of sense. When you have cancer, one have to balance the side effects of pain killer and healing of the cancer. Which is better? To get healed first and then deal with the side effects of pain killer. Or worry about the side effects.